Venus With The Bow [Daryl Dixon f.f]

30/Haunt Down

We sometimes want to change everything about the past,now and the future,don't we?Shit hits the fan and we think about every possible way that we could stop it,but here we are!it's just thoughts and wishes.

I wanted Woodbury gone,i wanted to torture Governor not just for me.He was the reason of innocent people's death.I wasn't angry,but i wanted him dead because he was a threat to my family.

But look at me now..

The Governor's got away and we've accepted people in our place which i don't know how to feel about it.I want to rebuild everything not only my life,but also the whole world but that's a lot to ask for,isn't it?Because i don't know how or where to start but I suppose letting people in and giving them a chance to survive is a good start.

"Hey."Daryl says as he sits down next to me.

I smile weakly at him. "Hey."

"U alright?"

I nod. "And you?"

"I gotta be."he says and i look at him studying his face.He's got that cold look on his face like a wall that prevents everyone from walking in,he doesn't want me to know about the feeling he's got in his heart and i know why.

He doesn't want to seem fragile or light hearted.He wants be strong and that type of i don't give a shit and I understand when you hide your emotions because u're afraid of being judged.

"No you don't."I say a bit louder than a whisper. "You're tired and sad,maybe even angry.You should let yourself feel and you can be not alright,Daryl."

He looks at me and touches every inch of my soul with his eyes causing me to lock the air in my chest.

"Nah."he shakes his head. "There's nothing left to feel,not even sadness 'cause that's never gonna stop happening.The death's always gonna fucking happen,we can't do shit do stop it."He pursed his lips and i put my hand on his carefully.I intertwine our fingers and he just watches..

"I know hoe does it feel to loose someone and i-i want to do whatever it takes to feel numb.I can't and maybe i don't want to feel anything after my mom.."i sigh. "Do you really feel nothing just like you show?"

He finally looks at me again and i sink in his eyes.He does magic with his eyes,i swear he does..

"He was my brother..Not the one you'd like to have,but he was all i had in this world and now i feel-i feel.."he sighs. "Never mind."

I tilt his chin,buy he still doesn't look at me. "You feel empty and alone like your existence is for nothing,but you pretend there's something left to feel and fight for,don't you?"

He just looks at me with eyes now softened.He kind of nods and i weakly smile at him.

"It's okay Daryl."I say like a whisper and i wrap my arms around him not knowing why,but i guess we both need it.He doesn't move an inch,he just stand shocked because he didn't see that coming.Me neither to be honest..

He takes a deep breathe and after some seconds passing by he puts his strong arms around me in so manly.

"I'm gonna find that Governor."he says out of the blue.I break the hug and i look at him with a little frown.

"What?"

"He has to die."

I nod. "I know how you feel right now."

"It's not like the way you felt,Kendall.."

"Daryl,i wanted him dead because he was a threat and deserved the worst.I would've watched him suffer with joy,but hey,he's gone so why to bother?"