Venus With The Bow [Daryl Dixon f.f]

27/This Is Gonna Be A War

I try to finish my oatmeal while sitting in cafeteria listening to my baby sister making sound.Everyone had something on their mind and i know what's that about.

We all want governor dead somehow,but we don't specifically know what we might face and that causes the fear running in our veins.

Me,well,I'm thinking about mom.I just can't believe she's not here anymore,i can't believe Carl's been the one who shot her so that she wouldn't turn.This is all hard,harder for Carl to do so.And i can't believe i fell asleep in Daryl's arms last night..when we woke up this morning,we both blushed and somehow ran away from each other..but it just felt good to have him there for me.No matter if he didn't say much,but i didn't feel like i have to carry all of this alone..

Dad being quiet makes me worried.he' trying to run away from mom's death and i can see how pain is he in,but yeah,he's trying to run away and hide it.So does Carl.

"Hey champ."i say. "U okay?"i put my hand on his shoulder and he looks up at me with a small fading smile.

"I should be the one asking you this."He says.

"Well,"i smile and put my hand on my knees. "I'm sad and scared because of lots of things and i feel better than days before.look,i can walk."I chuckle and try to be honest so that he talks to me.

He chuckles along with me. "Don't be scared,i won't let anything happen to you."he assures me.

I hug him and he rests his little head on my chest. "I feel happy to have you by my side,Carl.Mom's happy u know why?because you take care of ur sisters,she's not worried anymore."i caress his little hand and leave a kiss on his hair.

"Wish she knew you're alive."he whispers.

"She knows."i sigh. "She knows everything,she's got an eye on us."

"Are u still sad about..her being gone?"He squeezes my hand.I break the hug and look deeply in his eyes.

"When it all started i wanted to die.When i was in hospital all i could think of was my own death and i could've done it just like others,but i didn't do you know why?"

He shakes his head no.

"Because i wanted to come back home to you and mom and dad.I had to,i wanted to be with you and do my best to protect you.I mean,who wants to live in a world like this?but our families make us want to keep going.Mom couldn't just leave you,she was there for you.But now,she knows you've got me and dad and even this little angel.She's still with us,Carl.I want you to know that."

"I love you,Kenzy."He kisses my cheek and i smile. "I'll keep going for us all."

We hear noises.I look at Carl and i see the worry in his eyes.I take my knife out just in case.

"What's that?"Carol asks and i shrug.

I walk out of the cafeteria and then i see Andrea coming in with the others.oh my god..what's she doing here?

She hugs Carol and looks at me with a smile.I return it.

"After you and Kendall saved me,I thought you're dead."Carol says and Andrea smiles.

"Glad you're here."Andrea says and walk towards me. "What's happened to you?"she asks frowning.Well,i had things to say but i just didn't want to.

"I'm just fine,Andrea."I say with a little smile.

She looks at all out faces and i wonder if she could ever notice the pain we all are in from loosing people and fighting for each other.

"W-Where's Shane?"she asks the question i never wanted to know the answer for,because i guess i know what had happened already.I could tell what happened back in the farm was the scene Shane had put up and I could've killed him myself no matter how close we were before all of this,no matter how much i loved him and i hate that feeling i get when i think about killing him.