Venus With The Bow [Daryl Dixon f.f]

33/Death And Graves

Now

I blinked.

The first thing i saw was two blue eyes starring at me.

"Dammit."I cursed and sat straight. "You were supposed to wake me up,not to stay up whole night on watch."

"Good morning to you too."Daryl said and sat next to me wrapping a grey sweatshirt around my body. "You barely sleep."

I sighed. "I have so many thoughts on my mind,they keep me awake."

"You still think about Zach?"He looked at my eyes,but stole his eyes from me.

I looked around.

The air was foggy and a little bit cold.I wished everyday to be like that..I really liked this weather.

"I can't see that we're loosing someone else.It keeps happening again and again..i'm just tired of it."I sighed.

"Everyone is.We can't do shit about it."

I put my hand on his neck forcing him to look at me. "Why are we this far from each other?"

He ran his tongue on his lips. "We ain't."

"Bullshit."I said with clenched jaw. "You barely look at my face.Do you regret whatever that happened between us?Because i don't,Daryl.But if you do..please tell me.I feel like hell."I said with pleading eyes.

He looked at me in a way like i said the worst thing. "I can't keep my eyes off of you,i can't fucking keep you outta my mind so what you say is bullshit!"

"Do you regret it,Daryl?"I asked him with my lips trembling and my heart beating like a drum in my chest.

His blue eyes burned my soul down and touched every nerve in my body,making every damn feeling i had for him to grow bigger.

I hated him..i hated him so much for making me fall on my knees because of his love by just looking at me.I was sinking in the blue ocean of his eyes..I was begging for him..and i was scared that he didn't want me or regretted our little moments.

"I love you,Kendall."Those words left his mouth and i..i thought i'm in a dream.My heart dropped and I couldn't breathe.. "that's all i know."He said and a smile appeared on my lips.

"But i'm scared as hell because you deserve every good damn thing in this stupid world,but i ain't good for you.I don't wanna break your heart,i'd do anything to see your smiles.I don't want you to regret choosing me."

My lips crashed on his as a response.I sat on his lap putting my knees on opposite sides of his body.I held him as close as i could and his hands pressed my body against his.

"I've never loved someone like you in my entire life."I whispered on his lips.

"Why?"He said not sure if it was right to ask,but i saw that coming.I had heard him asking why when i thought about telling him i've got weird feelings for him.

"I don't care how this world looks like,because all i care for is you when we're out there or in here..i know i got you and i feel safe,i feel like i've never left my home when it comes back to you Daryl.."

"I've never loved anyone or anything in my life,Ken."He said more like whispering a secret into my ear. "You changed me,so much.I've never been comfortable to talk about how i feel,but ya deserve to know i love you."

I smiled as my hands caressed the scars on his back.I wanted to feel everything he had ever felt and i wanted to enjoy everything he had ever enjoyed..

You ask me where these feelings came from?

I don't know.It was hard to look at his eyes and have him all around you as a shelter and not fall in love..love is a ruthless game,it's got no rules and it never makes sense.