𝐓𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐤𝐲: 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬

Where it all began

(Hear the above song once)

Prequel to "Ashes" in His POV:

I saw you in my black and white school, sitting on a bench and you looked towards me the same time i did
And i felt like i knew you since forever even when it was the first time i saw you

That strange familiarity filled me with
An anxiety beyond my control, a peace beyond my reach,
A desperation beyond my control, a gravity beyond science,
A feeling beyond my body, a knowing beyond my knowledge.

I never came across you before but believed you to be the one of my dreams.
Never talked with you, but never ended the conversations in my imaginations.
Never thought of being with you, but kept you in all of my thoughts.

There are so many girls in the world;
So beautiful, so charming and attractive,
Yet i could never see perfection in them
As all my attention went to you!
I saw perfection in only your imperfections.

Butterflies i got whenever you looked at me,
Even though the sight was for a moment, as i was afraid of getting caught,
I got wings and flew to heaven for a longer time
Dreamy, dizzy for more than just a while.

Heartattack it was whenever i would be around you,
Yet i was as still as the painting on the wall where i could see for miles of view
Just you, you and you
And within your eyes an irresistible universe.

You were so mysterious in many ways
And i was the keen mystery solver
Looking for all the details in those paintings and entered them to discover more of whatever was left unknown to me.

My eyes kept searching you wherever it went,
On roads, in school, on a park, in the crowd, in my home and everywhere;
In this hopeless search of something unreachable, all my time was spent.

Days started with a hope "Maybe i can..."
Nights ended with a wish "...i will forget you"
And my mind filled with mysteries called "Why? Why? Why?"
As i leaned towards my overthinking.

From "you" to "u", the words in my dictionary changed.
Like the two fishes in my zodiac, hopelessness and hopefulness spiralled around my heart.
I sailed on your poems like a black swan and dived deep into the realms of poetry.

My heart never knew how to be alive
But my countless wishes set the darkness within alight.
U never did anything for me, but even "nothing" made me consider u as "my everything"!

Life became so beautiful for a while
That i forgot i was chasing a light
Which was too fast for me to ever reach it within my life.

Still it filled my heart with a newfound euphoria
And your was the home.
Never thought i could be so happy before,
Everything was like that in a lovely folklore.

Each moment of your sedative sight was so dear that i kept quaffing it like a hideous thief
As i knew, only a few more drops would be left to savour
As the school life was coming to an end.

I thought of living a life of lies like
Daydreaming of things not meant to be
And hallucinating you everywhere.

I wanted to stay like this forever,
But still as you told me to be honest,
I told you a bit of the truth hiding my deeper feelings deep inside the corners of my heart
Because i dreaded to come near as i didn't wanted to bother you with my dark and wild love
And countless dreams which already made me dead as i knew it was not mine to make.

And i waited and waited for the wait to end
Just for knowing if you read my mind full of "U"s or maybe "us" yet or not.
Unfortunately, your cruel & cold frozen-heart pierced through my blood in a single shot.
I was called by many names which were the harshest slangs i ever heard
And countless hopes shattered with your rude anger wrecking havoc on my pure love.

Truth became lies,
Misunderstanding took place over our lives.
Blizzard filled my heart with nevermelting ice;
Ice was the compound of self hatred, sorrow, pain and loneliness.

Abyss in my heart, no lights could enter it
No matter what, i died like a burnt matchstick.
Yet the river flowed in the valley of my eyes
And i stopped the landslide of thoughts and emotions within, it made me sick.

People said to give up on my hopes,
Move on and live my life like dope,
But fire of love raged high, i went high
On the pain and the rebellion rising within me to undo our wounds.

A bunch of citizens came up and went to say their grief,
Hoping that they would be allowed into the castle and given the justice,
But got to know your concrete mind was the Empress who subdued the innocent citizens like my feelings demanding for their freedom
And crushed was that righteous rebellion.
Just because your eyes were in your brain and your soul was too hollow to see what's right what's wrong.

What i wanted was to love this scenary i was seeing all the time.
What you thought i wanted was to force you to love me back.
Both humans, one uses brain too much one uses heart too much.
Etopia was the painting which became a dystopia just because of a mind too critical, and a heart too cold to melt.

Dreams crushed under the paws of the fate,
Broken you were as me but i in unfulfilled love and you in hatred.
I wondered what was the dream
Was it those which i saw during the night sleep
Or the ones when i was awake.

"You kept digging my garden of innocent flowers of love for finding a bomb which was never there beneath. In the rush with that sharp weapon called hatred, you destroyed a beautiful garden. Yet a tiny flower always keeps blooming there in the graveyard"

Dedicated to "moonpallete"

Check this beautiful soothing song below for sure: