𝐓𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐤𝐲: 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬

I don't wanna but...

Her POV: (Some parts here are at same time as in "A Girl in Disguise/His POV" poem, others continued from "Unfulfilled")

You ask me often what's my name
And i always say the same
The one which isn't what I'm.

Anonymous.

I would rather keep my identity a secret
Than be hated
By you

I would rather fake everything, like my joy,
Than reveal my pain
To hurt you

I would rather leave you to live alone
Than add my burden
To destroy you

The first day i came across you
Yes i remembered it always
21 February it was, forever in the diary of my heart.

Those coincidences felt as if something was meant, like you and me to sprint together, like you and me messed up together and made to arrange each other.

Autumn days, winter fell, ring the bell,
And everyone says,
"You love, you break and emotions sways"

I thought you were like them all
Fake lover, who would just be desperate
For getting and never giving,
But i was wrong,
And that's why i went into a frenzy
You were really so strong
By your will, by your love
Just i was wrong

Always.

Felt a strange familiarity i can't recognise well
And the white hues in your black eyes drowning within mine

That one Smile.

I adored, i loved it,
With every bit of this heart
I would beat for glimpse of it.

I made a love, a love scenario,
Saw it through the projector
Watching you and me
In a way we couldn't be

Your talks enchanted me
Calmed my demons,
Mesmerized me.

I was the 62nd follower
Sucking those love filled poem nectar
As if you were my garden flower
And i was your bee

You'd often ask me where i came from,
But what could i answer to you,
I kept quiet but i knew that i came for you.

I thought you were a poison
But you were a sedative elixir I'd love to sip
Like a coffee, I'd ask for a dose daily.

I made stories, faking the things i could,
Unprepared how to face what it could.

Lies by lies, the burden stacked up,
Building blocks of pain and vain
I'd always hide that i was on my overfilled tub
Drowning myself in agony and disdain.

You had your exam, i didn't wanted to bother,
But no matter what you wouldn't leave me alone,
I'd keep drowning and you'd keep pulling me out,
It was just a few days and you didn't mind wasting your time for saving a pitiful messed life like mine.

Moments pass
Seconds
Minutes pass
Hours pass

You were willing to be there
When i was drowning here.
That's how it started

You're my fallen angel.

You were too kind, too good to be true
And i couldn't believe if it really was true
That you loved me more than anything
That you kissed me with an unlimited affection

We had fun, chit chats, on floor mats,
You be the sun, I be the moon,
Together we made evenings alive,
I kinda guessed I'd already selected your name for the nameplate on my heart.

From little games we played
To the little details of days we lived

Yes i wanted you too bad
But you won't love me isn't that sad?