𝐓𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐤𝐲: 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬

Nightmare

A.N. this poem is just a random thing i wrote in a post. I was just venting out. Not making an actual poem so sorry for grammatical mistakes and all that. I would like to keep the rawness of my emotions and feelings.

Sometimes talking to myself feels better
Than writing a pure hearted love letter
Than trusting some ppl so that they can give me agony and mental torture.

Traumatize me with mind games
Play with my innocence

Make me dream so much
That i die out of hopelessness
Giving fake hopes to live forcibly
Is that the way of life really?

I was better off being a gamer
Than being a lover.

At least games don't break your heart
Nor do they hate or ignore you like shit
At least they distract from pain
Not be fuel to the burning vain

I would rather die hearing a sad song
Than fuck my head by someone's lectures on what's right what's wrong?

Now I'm gone insane for real
I'm a ghost lurking in different words
Everything dreamy is surreal

Don't joke with my heart
With the love you call of yours as true
Everything is fake if red turns blue

I'm tired of being broken being used up
And never really getting what i deserved

I hate that they were all afraid,
Fear of everything, let me sleep on death bed.

She is innocent and beautiful
Absorbing all of my life which was colourful
She destroys cities built with love
And then proudly flies like a cute dove

Healing is a far away destination
When the continuous damage keep blocking
Like dark clouds over the bright sun

Addicted to pain
Enchanted by blood rain

Don't mess with my brain
Just coz you have nothing to gain

Here i go, high speed,
Another dip down the lane

Now what to do if the car is broken beyond repair
How to survive the scar , walking on thorns, bare

Wish i could say this is just a nightmare.