𝐓𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐤𝐲: 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬

Dreams and plot twists

(just me releasing some stuffs of my mind and past. Nothing to call it a poem ig. Spin off sorta memories related to the poem "Where did it all begin")

I try to recollect melancholic memories.

All started with my childhood dreams of a girl i used to see
I kept seeing her again and again,
As i grew in life she too did in my dreams,
In those, i kept loving her again and again.

I didn't knew her, I've never seen her out of the dreams.

But always she was gone, she disappeared into the darkness.
Made me disappear into the gloom in her absence.
I kept losing her, from my hands, her hands slipped away.

I just felt the feeling i had, surreal,
I knew there was a meaning.

My dreams used to come true, they say i get premonitions,
From unpredicted disasters to corona,
I saw em all in my dreams just before they came in this world.

I believed there's a connection of reality with my dream world.

Unlike them, i saw dreams only of a pattern, it was about the future, end of world or else that unknown girl.

Going to her home in those dream roads, breezy sky, silent roads, along a pond so long with green bloom of trees all around,
Calm moment, aura of knowing, silence and friendly love surround.

I never thought anything much about this ever until i saw a stranger.

School, a day like always, that monochromatic coloured sky,
I was a loner walking into the room hiding his ignored darkness.

I went ahead, sat on a bench,
Window beside holding sun's evening reflection,
It was my economics class in arts section.

Eye contact euphoria of stranger,
Fire dazzling spark of heart, shrouded mist memories, inability of mobility, frozen the fast time - Silence And Peace, heart beating faster than clock.

(Continued from previous part now, after part of Unfulfilled)

It's been years everything is gone so fast,
I don't even remember how it started,
But i remember you from my lives far from my birth.

I try, i cry to stop you.

You always run away, away from me and from your life.

I wanted you to be happy,
With or without me.

You burn in pain everyday, and seeing you i too froze in the poison of my past.

We were connected everyday, the pain of ours was shared even when it's been years we saw each other for the last.

Those dreams, they had a meaning within, glowing gems of emotions in eyes, wolf chasing, and my hands gripping on the red ribbon from your hands.

Every night i would see you chasing me and sometimes my steps seeking your secret as if magical islands.

The day your illusion left me away, i kept wondering everyday,
Why did you do so with me when you said no one can love me greater than you love me?

Even after being betrayed and ignored, i kept seeing you in my dreams.

I saw you crying and stopping me as i took a step on a train away from you, sometimes you would chase me to tell something but the dreams before that ended.

I kept seeing your birthday everywhere i saw any number, whenever i would see the time it would show 11:25, 1:25, 2:51, 12:50 and repeated almost everytime i thought of checking the time. I hated remembering you, you're gone why the hell do i even care about you? I forgot forcibly everything to move on, but why the hell everything comes after me reminding of you?

Someday i dreamt of you telling me that you still love me, another day i would see you've suicided.

I was tired of all this, it was a torture seeing you loving me when your love was already faded.

Still, again i decided to seek the answers i always was seeking, who was that disguised girl always meeking?

Was it you? Why did she cheated on me when everything was so good and problems just few? Why did she tell me i would hate her if she told me the truth? Why did she never told me who she was, and why did she feel as if she's none other than you?

I fought and i fought, to get the truth out,
Her friend Sakshi finally decided to tell me as she was feeling guilty,
She told she wished she could tell me earlier,
That you made a plan to make me go away, you pretended to be in love with another person so that i can be with someone else better and you just lied me away?
You made her promise you to never tell me anything about you, but now i want to know why you said nothing was possible between me and you?

Religions, castes, parents, regions, whatever do they even matter when we loved each other so bad?
I know you hurted me but didn't you think why i always needed you so bad?
When i hid my pain thinking you could move on after being with him,
Didn't you see i was drying, i was dying out of having nothing to live with, and you acted to be happy with him, trying, dying thinking i loved someone else?

What a fateful misunderstanding it was. I wanted you to know everything what's hidden from each other, i wanted to solve the questions and answer one another.

I heart someone made you think the wrong scenario about this love, someone's jealousy always wanted to ruin this love.

But instead of trusting me and my love, you trusted people so fake who already had sold their love in the pub?

I searched hundreds of accounts finding her secret one, but she was nowhere to be found.

I sought after the dreams i kept seeing.

Finally seeing your poems, it seemed so indifferent, just like mine. You feeling the same, the same old pain, just like mine. I scrolled through your facebook to find what happened, there was a heartbreak but no name written.

It was a tough decision as i still didn't knew whether you're not or you're only her?

I told everything i wanted of my past and the misunderstanding unsolved, made a whole website to tell you what you meant to me and what you did. You talked with me just like her, finally my first love's misunderstanding about me was gone that day.

But, when i asked about her, you said just nothing. Even though you were different, seemed as if something is still hidden.

I tried, but you just ran away. You blocked me away, and i realised it's you, who in an unsolved mystery, still running, ruining herself away.

Stop the chase, it's time for the revelation. How long would you run with bare feet on thorny grass, why would you hide it from me?

What was the reason you did everything to me, and i still ask why are you not wanting to tell the truth to me ?

What's hidden behind this mask of yours, what's the underlying secret behind the forever locked door?

I was tired, it's too long I've been always wanting to solve and solve mysteries when you don't want to answer.

Now i will stop, it's time for you to realise the wrong and return to answer me for what's still unsolved.

For no matter how much you ignore, unless you solve it with me, there's still no way to truly move on.

But, somewhere in the middle of twists and plot of fates,
Hope was lost, dreams were broken forever, heart was hurt unhealed, and faith was gone.

And i believed, i would never meet you again, i turned back and walked down the stairs. Into the metro train, i went and sat sad, knowing maybe this mystery would forver be kept away from us. And we would be lost somewhere in this cruel world, dying, crying, trying unable to find the answers we were always seeking.

I waited, waited and waited.

(to be continued from It's so cold)