To My Lovers

dear first love

And i have tried to fall in love with so many others,
But my heart still calls out your name as i groan in pain, as i cry myself to sleep
Its out of fear that i keep you around
In hope that i don't reach for another like yourself
So i don't hurt myself again
But i miss our friendship sometimes but then i remember how bad it really was
And i remember how much i hurt
So i need to let go
I need to turn away, and live on with this open wound
It never gets better but its healing slowly
The flesh is barely visible anymore and the skin has made it better, it has merged and stopped the bleeding
Its just a scar now, just an old tale i tell for fun
Just murmurs of my favourite song that played too many a times and is now unlistenable
It has been goodbye for so long but now i will carry us in my broken glass box
And i will take you with me as i become the one i love
So dear first love, i don't love you anymore and it took a bit too long to come so far
But thankyou for teaching me how to love