To My Lovers

the boy you tried so hard to not be

You didn't impress me with your reckless spending
Or how cool you were, or whatever you were trying to be
Or how you were all pretty and alluring dressed in black
I fell for the boy who bent down to pet a cat, and his slouched shoulders held my heart so prettily
And your shy eyes as you looked away
I loved your sighs when you scrambled to form words out of alphabets
And your whimpers on call,
All of my attention was at your feet
Your hesitant love you too at the airport
Had me restless for weeks
And when you pulled down the window to drench me in the rain, i fell for your boyish smile and the look in your eyes couldn't compare to another
I fell for the small things
Things you probably didn't think would affect us in anyway
But when you expectantly looked at me after you handed me your favourite cake
I would do it all again just for the boy i met for a millisecond
Because he was so beautiful, so safe to be around
He felt like a lover i would want to hold one last time
I still look at the misshapen cat you drew in my sketch book
And hold it fondly because i was lucky to have met him, the boy who held back his smile and the one you tried so hard not to be
I am so glad i met you

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