O2L's Butterfly||Adopted By O2L

Too Much Love

Jc's P.O.V

I woke up late in the middle of the night, i looked at my phone to see that it was 3 in the morning and almost everybody had crashed on the couch. Kate had fallen asleep on my chest, she looked so cute and peaceful. I decided to wake her though cause if the boys saw her cuddling into me in the morning they would kill me, especially Ricky. "babe everyone fell asleep on the couch, wake up." She just turned over and buried her face more into my chest. I scooted out and off to couch, Kate started to wake up now. "I wanna sleep, come lay back down i'm tired." "Come on, lets go to my room." i said picking her up bridal style. I walked up the stairs and t her into my room, and layed her on the bed. She still was in her dress and cardigan from earlier. "babe do you want to change into something else." She nodded and sat up "I'll go get close from my room... i should probably sleep in there too." she said. "No babe, sleep in here. i've got some close for you too." I pulled out one of my cloudi muscle tee fan shirts and tossed it to her. 

Kate's P.O.V

"Thanks babe but i should really sleep in my room tonight". I got up and started to walk towards to door, i was really tired and stumbling a little. "No babe please stay." Jc said and pulled my wrist a little bit to hard for comfort. "No Jc." "Come on babe just take they dress off and put on this cozy shirt i have for you and stay in here." Jc said but he flicked up my dress while he was saying this and made me feel really uncomfortable. "No Jc let me go." I was trying to get out of his grasp on my wrist. "No, come one babe just take this dress off and stay." Jc was grabbing all over my dress with his other hand trying to undress me. "NO JC" i yelled. He tightened his grip a little more. "Come on don't be bitchy about taking your clothes of now you took your shirt off in front of everyone earlier." Jc said in a harsh tone. "Jc please let me go". There were tears running down my cheeks from the pain of his grip and the hurt full thing he was saying. "What the hell Kate do you just want to stay a secret forever never getting to move past then the secret cuddling cause i'm getting tired of that, your my girlfriend and I love you and i want to do more than that with you. Come on just take is off already for fucks sake." Jc pulled up on the bottom of my dress and tried to take it off of me. "Stop jc just let me go, there is something wrong with you right now this isn't the Jc i know come on let me go and we can talk in the morning please your hurting me." I was speaking in a soft tone, with tears streaming down my cheeks. Trying to show him i was really hurting. "Fine just get the fuck out of my room" He let go and i walked away quickly i was shutting the door but not before i heard him mumble "fucking bitch she's acting like i love her to much, why did i have to fall for her." 

I shut the door and crumpled to the floor just outside his room. My chest tightened and i could feel a panic attack coming on. My breathing got heavy and everything Jc said was running through my head at a mile a minute. I sat there for a second and tried to make it stop but all i could think was how i probably just ended me and Jc because i would stay the night in his room. what the fuck, why didn't i just do it, god i'm a fucking idiot i deserve to go back to the orphanage and die. 

I had made my way back to me room but was still having my panic attack i couldn't get it to stop. I just kept crying and wheezing and my wrist hurt really bad and there was a bruise on it and i just want to fucking die. Then i heard light footstep coming up the stairs. I tried to make my wheezing get quieter but i couldn't. Whoever it was though went into there room and didn't even notice me. Now i'm just left with one decision, do i cut to make it stop or should i go see one of the boys other than Jc. My crying grew harder because i couldn't make a decision, all i could think about was Jc. I want my blades. I want to bleed i want to see the pain in my split veins. I got up and started to walk to the bathroom. I was still wheezing and crying. I stepped out of my room and started to walk down the hall to get my blades, but then someones door opened and they came walking out. It was Kian. "Kate is that you, oh my god whats wrong. Are you having a panic attack? Kate why didn't you get me earlier." Kian said and picked me up. It felt right i felt safe as soon as he touched me. I put my head into his chest and just cried. He brought me back to his room and we sat on his bed with me in his lap. "Kate kate i need you stop crying beautiful, come one my little butterfly, your okay, i love you and you need to be okay for me to be okay, come on calm down i got you and nothing bad will get to you when your with me, your ok, breathe in.. and breathe out...come one butterfly" Kian continued to talk to me like this for at least 10 minutes until i could breathe again and the crying had slowed.