O2L's Butterfly||Adopted By O2L

No More Fighting!

Kate's P.O.V

We ran in to find Jc with a bloody nose and a dad on the ground before i could say a thing Kian had jumped inbetween the 2 "WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING HERE?" Kian yelled "JC SAID KATE WAS A SLUT AND THAT HE WISHES I NEVER ADOPTED HER!" When dad said that i felt my heart physically break into a thousand pieces. A lump grew in my throat and the Tip of my tongue tingled with sobs but, i bit my tongue afraid that if i opened it and let out my cries they would never end. The room grew silent as dad realized i was standing directly behind Kian. I felt my eyes glaze over with tears, "No sweety i did'nt want you to hear that Jc is wrong you are the best decision i have ever made" He stood up and came towards me with open arms. I jerked back and my legs crumpled underneath me, still an after affect from the overdose. "KATE! are you okay??" dad asked. "No.. I'm I'm not." My voice came out stuttery and with a high picked crack. My tears came flowing down as I got up and moved as quickly as my legs could cary me upstairs and into my bedroom. "KATE WAIT I"M SORRY" I heard Jc yell as i slammed my door and locked it.

Immediately I started going through my desk drawers and looking in little boxes, searching for any left over blades "Come on i couldnt have given Cameron all of them" I whispered through my tears. The boys were banging on my door and screaming for me to come out. "I CANT DO THIS" I yelled and collapsed onto my floor. I cried and cried sobbing hysterically, hyperventilating. Then my chest tightened and all the muscled in my body grew tense. WHAT A GREAT FLIPPEN TIME FOR AN ANXIETY ATTACK. Then i rembered in the clost inside and old pair of shoes that were my mothers was where i kept a blade. The first one i ever used the first blade i ever cut myself with. I inched over to to the closet and looked for the shoes. 

As soon as i found them i pulled out the old blade. "KATE LET ME IN PLEASE" i heard Kian yell from the other side of the door but ignored it. It was a dull blade and had what almost looked like rust on it. I pushed up my sleeve and placed the blade directly over my vein "This is it Kate you can end it all right here" I said to myslef. My mond flicked back to all of the rare times i had a good time with the guys. I thought about Kian and everything we had said to each other. Yet i still put the blade to my wrist applied some pressure and pulled. The cut was deep, but not deep enough to kill me or make me pass out, but still good. The red blood oozed out dripped down my arm, but then i noticed the panic attack didnt stop.....shit 

Kian's P.O.V

"KATE NO!" Jc Ricky and I all ran upstairs after Kate. Jc was screaming he was sorry. Kate locked herslef in her room and then i heard the sobs. "KATE LET US IN"  we all screamed but she never answered. We yelled and yelled, all i could think was that she was in there hurting herslef and that hurt me. All the guys incuding me were banging on the door shouting for her. Then we heard it.. she yelled the loudest i have ever heard her "I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE" This only scared all of us even more. How the hell do i get in? "KATE LET ME IN PLEASE"  i yelled in my last attempt of hoping she would say anything.

Then i rembered Kate has a window. That window leads out into the roof on the same side as Trevors room. I ran to the next door and went into Trevors room. All the guys were too caught up to even notice I ran away. I went to Trevors window and unlocked it I climbed out onto the roof and moved as quickly as i could to her window. I loocked inside the window to see kate with a bloody arm and gasping for breathe. I tried to open it but you cant open the windows from the outside. "KATE LOOK AT ME!" i yelled i knew she was having a panic attack. Her head flicked up and i could see the panic in her eyes she wasnt ready to die not like this. I kicked the glass window and it began to break. I kicked it again and it shattered. I Jumped in and ran over to Kate. "KATE!" I wrapped her into my arms and tried to figure out what to say. I pulled her into my chest and just held her "Kate you scared us all, why would you do this i love you so much and you are soo perfect you are my little butterfly and if i ever lost you i dont know what i'd do." Her breathing was setteling slightly but still very rough and wheezy. I began to sing softly in here ear "There was a time when i was alone no where to go and no place to call home My only friend was the man in the moon and even sometimes he would go away too. Then one night as i closed my eyes i saw a shadow flying high. He came to me with the sweetest of smiles. Told me he wanted to talk for awhile. He siad Peter Pan thats what they call me I promise that you'll never be lonely and ever since that day I am a lost boy from never land usually hanging out with peter pan..." (Song is called lost boy by RuthB). Her breathing grew regular after the first minute of the song.