O2L's Butterfly||Adopted By O2L

Jc and Me?

Kate's P.O.V.

I woke up the next morning very late around 11. Wow I'm so used to getting up before the sun and the day has finally come where it beat me. I then remembered what had happened last night. Oh no they're gonna want to talk about it ughhhh. I then got up and went into the shower quickly making sure to not let any of the boys see me yet. I'm not ready to talk yet. I got into the shower and did my usual routine. I got out and ran my fingers threw my hair when I heard a knock on the door. " Kate, I have to pee please hurry!" Sam yelled from the other side of the bathroom door. I quickly put on my black leggings and oversized white sweater. I grabbed my makeup and jumped out the bathroom while Sam came running in. I walked to my bedroom and did my makeup quickly. I then decided it was time to face the day and go down stairs. "Here We Go...."

I walked down the stairs to see Connor making breakfast and all the other boys on the couch. I walked over and sat down in between Kian and Trevor, as soon as I sat down all the boys looked at me as if they were looking straight through me. "Hey guys what's up?" " Nothing just wanna make sure your okay" Kian said. "I'm fine don't worry about me. It was just a dream last night I'm fine." "Want to talk about it" Jc said " No."

"Breakfast is done" Connor yelled. I had planned my fasting and calories for the week today was 300 or less. So I would skip breakfast if I could. All the other boys jumped up and went to go get eggs, pancakes, and bacon. I breakfast I could never imagine eating. When they all came back over I saw that Jc had two plates. He gave one to me and bent over and whispered to me "We need to talk after breakfast." I quickly got very nervous and shook my head in agreement afraid what would happen if I didn't. He handed me the plate and walked away. I pushed around my eggs and slipped 2 pieces of bacon to wishbone Jc's dog. When no one was looking at me I quickly got up and cleared my plate without anyone noticing, and walked into the living room. Glancing at Jc see if he was following me. Shit he is.

Jc's P.O.V

I had been watching Kate's face all morning, examing it, watching her every emotion. She looked happy but looks into her eyes and you can see the dull depression taking over her head. All of a sudden she got up and started walking into the living room. I got up and followed her thinking she was ready to talk. I walked into see her almost in tears and sitting completely still on the floor. I quickly walked over and grabbed her hand and took her into the nearest room closing and locking the door behind us. "Kate why are you crying" "Please don't hurt me I know that's why you want to talk to me in private. You broke your promise" The tears were now streaming down her cheek. I pulled her into my chest and whispered to her " I could never do such a thing I need to talk to you though." "What is it?" I sat her down on the floor and grabbed her hand. " Kate last night after you feel asleep I took you up into your room and then remebered I had scratched you earlier. Trying to be nice I was going to change your Band Aid for you.... ummm and then I went to look at your cut and ummmm. There were dozens of cuts up your hip..... did you do that to yourself?"

Kate's P.O.V

Shit no, no one has ever known about this crap. What do I say? Should I tell him the truth? Or just make up an excuse? I looked up and him and looked into his eyes, filled with compassion and love he really wanted to help me. The tears started to stream from my eyes again "yes" I said with a very shaky voice and waited for his response. " Kate why would you ever do that to yourself? You are beautiful and kind and amazing in every way." " No I'm not I'm ugly and fat no one likes me not even you guys. You are gonna keep me for a while then realize how much of a fuck up I am then leave." The tears were streaming even faster now and I couldn't even think about stopping them. " NO Kate we will never leave you. You are amazing and deserve so much better than this. You have to promise me you will never do this again, next time you feel the urge to cut please just come to me I will help you." " Jc I can't make that promise... it's an addiction that makes me feel better. I can't just drop it and you cant just cure me." What he did next shocked me. He rolled up the corner of my sweater revealing all the scars and fresh cuts. Immediately I wanted to pull his hand away but I didn't. He ran his fingers over then very gently then bent over and kissed them "your beautiful" he said. He moved away from them and made eye contact with me. He looked into my eyes and me into his. He started to wipe my tears from my eyes and lean in closer. I didn't feel the need to pull away, I just let him get closer and closer until our faces were inches away. He looked into my eyes and then leaned in and kissed me. He just kissed me on the lips. It was amazing and I felt the sparks fly but he is 21 I'm 16. I've known him for 2 days. What am I doing? We continued to kiss and I kissed back. Crap why Kate. Why?