O2L's Butterfly||Adopted By O2L

The Truth

Kians P.O.V

We layed there for a while then Kate opened her mouth and said..... "I..I..c..can't...stop." She was so quiet and stuttery it was almost imposible to make out what she was saying. There were a thousand things running through my mind questions and answers and things i needed to tell her, but instead i just pulled her into my chest and ran my fingers over her back and through her hair. The last thing i wanted to do now was give her a panic attack with all my questions. 

It was around 4 and Kate had fallen asleep in my arms. She needed sleep and recovery time more than anything right now. Cameron, Nash and Hayes were leaving at 5 so i knew they would be coming in from the pool soon. Just like it was a que a heard the sliding door downstairs open and a bunch of yelling boys come in. Kate rolled over but stayed asleep,she rolled out of my arms so now was my opportunity to get up. I crawled out of my bed tossed on a shirt and took the note Kate had written out of my pocket and stuffed it in my sock drawer. I ran down stairs and met Ricky half way up. "Hey i was just coming to check on Kate" "Oh she is still asleep in my room but she is looking a lot better." "Good i think i'm going to just check on her" Ricky said. "NO.. um she just fell back asleep and it's no use in waking her she needs rest to get better." "I guess your right, i'm just gonna go rinse off and change out of my swim suite." " K dude." 

Cameron Nash and Hayes were all cleaning themsleves up and getting ready to leave. Jc and sam were still sitting outside on there phones. Connor went for a run, and trevor was editing a video up in his room. It felt wierd they were all so oblivious to the traumatic and horrible event that had taken place just 2 or 3 hours ago. I went back upstairs to check on Kate to find her sitting up in my bed. You could just look at her and tell that it was over and she was gone. It was going to take a lot to get her back to the okay state she was at before. Her eyes looked tired and her lips were split and cracked, her hair looked like it hadnt been brushed in days,  her collar bones jutted out so far they had there own shadow, not to mention they were bruised as well. She looked like she had gone through hell and more, but i guess she has. 

I closed the door behind me locking it. I walked over to her and sat down next to her, she didnt even recognize me being there, just continued her daze. I grabbed her hand "Come on butterfly talk to me." She turned her head with robotic like precision. "What do you wanna hear." She said with out even the slightest bit of vocal inflection. "Everything, but most importantly why?" She loosed her neck a little and her eyes softened to a even sadder shade of grey. "It's.. it's, too much.. to many secrets, and pains, to many reasons to leave and not enough to stay. Where do i even start." "Start at the begining butterfly, tell me everything, i promise your secrets are safe with me."

Kate's P.O.V

I felt nothing. My legs were numb, my face was gone, my heart dead and my brain jumped ship about a mile back, but when Kian grabbed my hand there was warmth and sparks my legs would shake and my heart would slowly pace again, but my head layed still in the water telling me he was just like Jc and there was no reason to let him in and give him your secrets. Vulnerable hurts and you know that, but what do i have to loose at this point right? I mean he pulled me out deaths hands today, i owe it to him. "Kate are you still here." Kian asked grabbing my hand and interlocking our fingers. My blood rushed and i knew it was okay. "Yes from the beginning. Well it all started the morning before Ricky adopted me I had cut myself that morning...." I told Kian everything i told him about the self harm and the really reasons behind the panic attacks, i gave him all the details behind me and Jc straight up to the most recent text that started today's events, but i didnt let him see that it hurt me. I had no vocal or facial emotion i was a robot with sad eyes and a moving mouth. I went back in time to the rapes and suicide attempt before, but i never once brought up the bulimia or anorexia . That was still my little secret.