Infatuated (hsau)

chapter 67.

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"I'm only looking out for you"
She said, "It's obvious that's a lie"
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Harry Styles

I'm so fucking proud of Harlow, so fucking proud.

She overcame her biggest fear and got in the shower with me, fully naked and then for the first time, we had sex fully naked. I've never had sex like it in my life, it was slow, it was meaningful, it was soft and my god was it amazing. I've never felt so close to someone in my life and even then, I wanted to get closer.

I've been worried about her recently since losing her cat but when she told me she was happiest with me I made the decision that I'm never leaving her side, because I never want to see her unhappy.

When we got out the shower I had the privilege of watching her get ready for the club whilst dancing around to the playlist I put on. I love watching her get ready, she looks so happy and seeing her sing to the music I listen to made me feel so weird and soft.

The reason we're listening to my music is because I made the confession that I have a playlist named after her with songs that reminded me of her. It's got the whole suck it and see album because of that night we danced in her kitchen for the first time, it has summer of 69 from that drive back home where she held my hand and looked so carefree, it has it's not living if it's not with you because of that night at the club where she made me dance with her, it has edge of seventeen because of that morning I forced her to sing it to me...

and of course it has daydream believer, our song.

There were a few other songs brown in the mix that reminded me of her such as pretty woman, miss atomic bomb and maybe every love song ever written by David Bowie or queen.

When I showed her the playlist I was embarrassed, because who the fuck makes a playlist for a girl withiut even telling her? But apparently it was actually sweet, because Harlow almost melted into the floor when I asked to play music and I've never felt more content in my life.

Harlows wearing a pretty green dress tonight, and she looks just perfect. Unfortunately she never believes me when I tell her but she should, I wish she did because she truly belongs on the runway. Seeing her strut up her staff corridor tonight felt like how I'd imagine watching the northern lights would feel like.

I had clothes at Harlow house, so she suggested my green, fitted trousers and a sheer black top. There was no way I could say no to her so I obliged and changed into the clothes she suggested. The second I looked in the mirror at us I saw nothing but two of the hottest people to walk the Earth.

Harlow looks happy tonight, genuinely happy and I don't think I've ever felt better.

She's back to her usual winding me up, the second I reached over to kiss her she pulled back and winked. Hopping out to go and be the woman who owns the best club in the city. Although she heavily rejected me, I'm just glad she's back to being herself.

"Got a date for the fight." Louis states as I approach the table and throw myself down next to Niall.

Please don't be soon.

I can't risk losing her yet.

Not when I haven't told her how I feel...but I will in a few days when it's her birthday.

She doesn't think I know when her birthday is, but I do because I did my reas watch on her and her LinkedIn profile tells me she's turning 25 in two days time. I'm not worried, I've got a few tricks up my sleeve for her birthday.