Ultimate's Book Of Thoughts (Ranting Book)

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thinking about how i have to do summer school again

i really wouldn't mind bc its classes I like

sociology and nutrition

but i also have to do geometry

i've always hated math. it's confusing, it's frustrating, and i'm absolutely terrible at it. what's more, geometry requires that you have at least a bit of background knowledge of algebra.

i don't.

i learned that two years ago and they're not going to give me a refresher on the entire class that i forgot. they just assume i know it.

"just *insert complicated formula here* and solve!"

okay but i don't know how.

when will they understand I don't get it? i never have. it's too much.

don't tell me there's another way to learn because i've tried everything.

ive tried asking teachers. theyre no help and again, assume i have a baseline knowledge. when i explain that i don't, they just say they can't help me with that.

ive tried asking my parents. they haven't done this crap for years and don't know either.

ive tried youtube videos and stuff. still confusing and you can't learn an entire years worth of algebra in two minutes.

it's just too much. it's so frustrating and there's nothing i can do

i fully expect to fail the class. my mom says that just because i always get straight A's that i won't fail. that ill be fine.

but that doesn't fricking help me. and grades don't mean anything anyway. most of my classes right now make absolutely no sense but I'm getting A's anyway because I am really really skilled at bs-ing my way through.

the only thing that grades mean is that i'm making the teachers satisfied.

i didn't understand my drawing assignment. but i'm really good at writing paragraphs of what I know that they want to hear.

"they want you to succeed"

no they don't, they want me to get a letter on a paper. and geometry is extremely hard to just pretend you know what you're doing because you have to show your work and actually know how to do it.

ugh

i hate school.

or more specifically, i hate geometry.

can't even tell anyone on discord about it because their immediate response is "show me the problem and i'll help!"

first of all, thanks but no thanks. i'm older than most people in my discord server and i doubt that they're going to be able to do 11th grade algebra.

second off, i do not want help. let me make this clear.

if i tell you i'm struggling in school, i do not want you to try and help me with a problem. i want to be hugged. i want to be comforted. i want to be loved.

when i'm complaining about school, the last thing i want is for people to assume that they can just do it and that i'm just missing something.