[ᴇᴅɪᴛɪɴɢ] 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐂𝐄𝐃 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 || 𝐲𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐣𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐚𝐧

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Sorry I've been updating less and slower than usual. I've been having a very bad month filled with writers block. I hope you don't mind.
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Thank you all for being patient with me, writing isn't as easy as it appears.
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~AU 👁👄👁

     I continued to play in my parents bed. Thoughts filled with absolutely nothing. I couldn't think, I didn't want too. If I did I would fear what my thoughts are telling me. That I'm now officially alone. Yeonhees gone, Mingyus gone, Jeonghans gone, my parents were never even there. I was officially alone. These depressing thoughts were the only voices I could hear, despite my desperate attempt to drown them. Luckily a loud noise covered the voice, the noise ringing constantly. It was a door bell. I groan, not wanting to get up. I do so anyways, opening my bedroom door and making my way to the front door.

     I opened the door, my eyes puffy from old tears. I look up, my eyes connecting with a sweaty Mingyu. I roll my eyes, turning to shut the door again. When I pushed the door to shut, Mingyu placed his foot in the doorway. "Y/N, stop—"

     I push more strength into the door, leaning against it completely, pushing all my weight on the door opening Mingyu would finally get  it. I didn't want him here! I didn't want him here at all! I wanted to crush his skull in, I hated him. He pissed me right the fuck off. So his smartest idea was come and show his face. He kept screening for me, his pleads being unheard because my anger was overpowering his words. "Go away!"

     "Not until you talk to me! Please! I'm begging you!" Mingyu continues to shout and groan from his foot being crushed. Why was he so determined? Just leave me the hell alone! Mingyu continued to push slightly on the door hoping to the the door open. When he found himself unsuccessful by doing it gently, he finally put a lot of weight into it. The sudden burst of energy sent me flying into the wall. I groan by the sudden contact with the table. I already have a feeling I was going to bruise. I scoff, decides to walk away from him. A fit of laughter slipping through my lips. "Y/N, don't walk away from me. We need to talk this out—"

     "Don't you get it? I don't want to talk! Not to you, not to anyone! So get the fuck out!" I shoved him towards the front door, once he was out of my way, I walked up the stairs, trying to head back into my parents empty room, where I've been laying in. Mingyu quickly grappled onto my forearm, spinning me around to face him. I could only scoff. What does he want to say? I already knew everything. "Dont fucking touch me."

     I quickly pulled my hand out of his wrist walking back up the steps. "You think I didn't know?!" Mingyu shouted from the bottom of the staircase. His voice was hoarse, it sounded broken. "You think I'm clueless, Y/N? I seen everything!"

     I turned around, my eyebrows furrowed. "Seen what?"

     "The way you stared at him! For gods sake Y/N!" Mingyu threw his hands in the air, running his fingers through his colored locks: "You like him, you're attracted to him. I don't even know if you even liked me, Y/N. You've liked Jeonghan this entire time— This entire relationship! I can see that!"

     "Don't you dare put this on me." I laugh walking down the steps, my finger pointing at him. I didn't stop until I stood right in front of him. Pushing the tip of my finger into his shoulder. "All it was at first was a drunk kiss, you're the one who assumed it was more. You're the one who made that bet for some lousy dirty money—"

     "I actually liked you!" Mingyu shouted, his face getting closer to mine. His eyes locked down with mine, his chest heaving up and down from his breathing. There was only silence between us. We didn't speak, we just stared. Our eyes embracing eachother, mixed with mixed emotion. "... I can prove it to you."

     Mingyu spoke with a soft voice, his hand raising to run the skin on my cheeks, gently pulling my chin up as he lowered his face to my lips. He's blistered mouth gently embraced my own, soft and gently. His hand finding its placement right underneath my chin and on my neck. Deepening the kiss. I moved my lips against his as well, and reflex I've grown use too. The kiss was nice and soft...
     —but it didn't feel right.

     It felt wrong, it felt so wrong. As if I was cheating on someone. During the kiss, my mind could only think of Jeonghan. My eyes were closed and I could only imagine this being Jeonghans touch. Mingyus kisses left my lips, trailing down to my jawline and down to my neck.

     "I think you're getting it... do you see that I genuinely like you?" Thats when I snapped into my senses. I push him by his shoulders, his feet stumbling away from the stairwell. I use that free space to walk down the stairs and into the kitchen.

     "Bullshit. You only liked playing me. The attention you got from people for managing to 'tame' the cold queen?" I chuckled pulling a glass out of the cabinet and turning on the faucet. I let the water run, leaning my hands against the sink, staring out the window above the running water. I turned my head, staring at Mingyu. "Let's just make things clear... You never liked me—"

     "But I did! I still do—"

     I raised my hand in the air, stopping him from talking. Once Mingyus lips closed, I lowered my hand. Leaning against the side of the table. "—I never liked you."

     "I love you." Mingyu stood there. Face ridden of emotion, heart broken. This was going to be the last chance. He wanted to see if I'd say something. "You know that, right? I'm in love with you. I can't help but feel like this."

     "I love you too Mingyu..." I could only sigh. Seeing the hope light up in his eyes. I had put it out. I'm not able to stay with any of them anymore. This whole situation ruined everything, every relationship I had and cherished. "...—but I'm not in love with you."