Insanity of Past Transgressions

Neon night life

I've never been particularly intelligent or even popular amongst my peers.  I've never been apart of something important and I can't even say loved.  I've never had anything close to real family but there is something.  I was meant for great things.  I didnt only know it but I felt it deep within my core being. 

I had a psychic once tell me that I was predestined for unfortunate things and its followed me like a bad stench.  Never quite reaching its peak only to torment and taunt me like a bad joke. 

I was still waiting.  Waiting for destiny to kick in.  I knew I was destined for something great or unfortunate. Either way destiny meant change and I longed for change.  So I strolled through life living it the best I could.  Waiting and living.  Wandering, never really fitting in anywhere.  Predestined to do something I was sure of it.

I took in the calmness of the weather.  The blissful chirping of birds and the warm pleasant breeze combined to create a peaceful atmosphere. I closed my eyes, trying to seize the last, fleeting moments of spring.  It was moments like these that made you wish you could freeze time and stay in them forever.

I had an odd sensation of tranquility.  Maybe it was my calling.  Something struck me that maybe it was time.  I had been cacooned long enough and it was time I sprout wings and flutter off into the mystery of the unknown.  Senior year was done.  I was officially an adult now.  Or maybe it was just another calm before the storm.

While I coasted my way through high school like a chameleon, blending in with school walls and hallways and hiding behind my backpack at the back of the classroom I don't think many people managed to notice me.  I preferred it that way.  However I just knew that my introvertedness had to end.

It was time my life began and I smiled at the thrill the thought brought me.

Japan.  Tokyo, Japan.

I rummaged through every memory I could seeking for a moment in time as exciting as this and nothing.  It almost irritated me at how lame my life had been.  I lay in bed fixated on the ceiling in a half conscious state of mind now filled with questions of what was next and then I remembered her.

It had been years since I last saw her. My oldest friend and I had been waiting for this moment all year and it was here. Neela and I had met in Puerto Rico just after her mom had passed away but this had been so long ago.

Neela was always that type of friend that always kept in touch no matter what was happening in her life. She was a loyal long distant friend. She never failed to write and once in a great while she would call me but was always true to herself.

She always said that I was a great listener and that those qualities in friendship were always hard to come by. She said to me one day Mira you are a unique soul and one day you are going to change the world. Maybe she was right because I always felt like I would do something important ya know.

Today was the day that she had suggested I come out to visit. We knew it would come but right now was the perfect opportunity so I jumped at the chance.

This would be my first visit to Tokyo. The only people who ever really get to travel the world and visit exotic places were either people with dreams or people who were important enough to be remembered. Sadly I wasnt in either category so when an opportunity like this comes along what can you do but take it. In fact I had a feeling this was the only time I felt I would ever do something this big.