Louis and I were still not talking to each other. After what happened I don't think I wanted to. Every time he would see me in his house he would act as if I was invisible. It was better this way. He had a girlfriend and well I had Will.
I wasn't ready to forgive Will, but I was ready to try. It couldn't go back to the way it was, too much had happened but we were both willing to start fresh, start new.
Millie and I were going to Southbank today. We had to take the tube of course as we didn't live near there. Millie wanted to go onto the London eye; she was never scared of heights and i wanted to just go out. I needed time with my best friend, i needed time to think about other things then what is currently going on. We usually went on the London eye at night as we got to see the city lit up. London was always the prettiest at night.
Louis would always say that. No. I was not thinking about him after what he said. He was being a dick, he really seemed to be good at that.
Millie was always the best with directions. She had been there several times with her family so she knew exactly how to get there. Me? I was hopeless. I would be completely lost without her.
After what felt like a whole hour of travel we had finally made it.
Before we went onto the London eye Millie wanted to go to her favourite cafe. Of course I was down, i loved the pastries they would sell there. i had never been but Millie once brought back a pastry for me. We walked through the crowded streets of London with one airpod in each other's ear so we could listen to the same song. I didn't trust Millie's playlist, it is usually awful but today the songs were actually decent.
I turned to her.
Y: "Another One direction song?"
M: "Of course."
I chuckled.
Y: "How long until we're there?
M: "Just round this corner."
Reluctantly, I kept walking.
M: "Oh y/n. I've gotta tell you something."
Y: "Yes..."
I was worried. What did she have to tell me?
M: "Louis and Ellie broke up."
Y: "Oh."
Poor Louis. Poor Emily. I wonder why?
M: "Just thought i should let you know."
I was sad for him no one deserves to be broken up with. Even though he was being a total dick, I still cared.
My eyes wondered to the other side to the road. A boy with light brown hair stood on his phone, hands in pockets.
No. it couldn't be. Will?
I tapped Millie repeatedly.
She took her airpod out and confusingly looked at me.
I pointed.
M: "Oh."
Y: "Why don't we go say hi?"
M: "y/n i really don't think that's a good idea."
Y: "come on, it will be fine. We are on good terms now. It won't be awkward, promise. "
He was standing outside a shop. Victoria secret? Maybe he was waiting outside of Calvin Klein next to it.
Y: "Why does he look like he's waiting outside of Victoria secret?"
M: "Maybe he's getting something for you?"
Y: "Mmmm"
A girl walked out of the shop door, with Victoria secret bags in her hands. She came out waving at him. He started to smile. She hugged him.
Y: "Maybe she's just a friend."
M: "Y/n i don't think-"
Her lips pressed against his. They were kissing.
I looked away. I couldn't go through this again, i felt my heart shatter into a million pieces.
Millie looked at me, she could see heart breaking sadness on my face. I was furious, the anger took over my emotions. I resented him.
My fist clenched.
Y: "I'm gonna go over there."
M: "y/n i wouldn-"
Before she could finish her sentence i was off.
I aggressively grabbed his shoulder. He turned and his jaw dropped.
W: "y/n i-"
Powerfully, my hand swiped across his face. He held his cheek as it turned red.
Y: "Don't call me, text me, don't you dare show your face again. I never want to see you again. I'm done. "
I strutted off. I wasn't done yet.
Y: "I swear to fuck if you come any where near me again it will end badly. "
I crossed over back to Millie.
Her mouth was still open wide. She stood in amazement.
I walked past her thinking she would follow.
Y: "Come on then."
M: "I am so proud of you, so proud."
She ran to hug me.
Millie and I went to her favourite cafe. We both had a cheese toasties and a coke each. I didn't want to talk about it and she knew that so we just talked about our random chat for a while.
Finally, we got to go on the London eye, it was amazing like always and was very relaxing. Being that far from everyone was comforting. I could finally be alone without distractions. It had been a long day. I just needed to get home and go to sleep.
On the quiet tube I rested my head on Millie's shoulder as we listened to her playlist. I felt very drowsy and felt like i was going to fall asleep. She turned to face me.
M: "Are you ok y/n? Like seriously."
Y: "I'm fine, I'm glad I saw that happen today. Imagine if i didn't and i fell for him again and he did that, it would be a lot worse."
M: "I guess"
We sat there for a moment.
M: "I never liked him anyway."
We laughed.
I was home. Millie went to hers and i went to mine. I felt like I could collapse right there. I was drained, emotionally and physically. Nothing seemed more ideal then going to bed and sleeping. I kicked my shoes off and got ready for bed.
I laid down underneath my warm duvet. I stared at the ceiling trying to process what had happened today. I felt so stupid. Why did i let him do that to me again? HE did that to me again and felt no shame. I tear rolled down my face. The massive amounts of tears came soon after and that night i ended up crying myself to sleep.
