Unsaid Love (JATP fanfiction)

• Chapter IX •

Juilliard University, NY, 2021

Melanie's POV:
I wake up feeling uglier than ever. There is smuged makeup all over my face from last night and the tears left it all crusty.
I walk to the living room, relived that Bryan already left. He only left a small note "Thanks for everything Melanie. I'm really sorry..."
I take a look at my phone and see that he blocked me everywhere. Maybe that's better to get over him.
There's one thing I'm sure about, I can't go to school today. I need some time for myself and wouldn't be able to concentrate anyway. I just really don't understand why he cheated. H-He loved me so much, right?
I take some deep breathes and go wake up Fiona and Julie to explain them everything that happened yesterday.
Of course they are furious, especially Fiona. She never liked him and had like a sixth sense that something was wrong all along.
"I know you hate to hear this, but I told you."
I roll my eyes back. "Yeah, fine. You were right for once. For ONCE I said." I reply causing a little giggle from the three of us.
A bit of group hugging, tears and anger later, they leave for their first classes this morning. They also promise to cook an amazing meal for dinner to cheer me up. I love food.

The whole day I felt emptiness and my heart aches. I'm not even able to cry from the shock. I feel like a complete loser that wasn't and isn't good enough. If I would be perfect, he wouldn't have cheated.
Right after these thoughts, Fiona and Julie enter energetic. They have bags full of ingredients for the delicious dinner and of course lots of chocolate.

"Awww thank you! I love you girls so much because even in such a situation you don't fail to make me smile."
I hug them for the hundredth time today and we promise each other to stay together forever. Cringe, I know.
"Please also be a bit careful when you choose your boys. You never know how they truly are..." Julie says in a concerned tone.
"We will. But you as well Julie!" She nods quickly as a respond.
We eat the best mexican food ever and go to bed quite early. I have to get more sleep this night.
When I lay down, I notice something under my pillow. I lift it up to find a letter and a grey hoodie. Why Bryan?
But after a second look, I don't remember him having such a hoodie. I open the letter. Definitely not his handwriting. But whom is it?
I carefully read through it and start tearing up again. It's about Bryan cheating on me and it's only at the end that I understand who the mysterious writer was. Reggie...
He saw him do everything and feels sorry. He shouldn't though because he's a ghost I saw for a few seconds. That sounds crazy as hell.
We barely know each other, yes, but at this very moment I really want to hug Reggie. At least he gave me his hoodie to cuddle up with.

I need to thank him for this but how? I can say thank you to the air when they visit us again but I will feel very weird. This whole ghost thing still overwhelms me.
I then feel a strange kind of energy on my shoulder. What was that? I look around and just shake my head, I must be crazy.
With Reggies amazing perfume scent up my nose, I fall asleep in an instance. Ryan disappears from my mind for a few hours of sleep. Thank God.

Fiona wakes me up with a tight hug. "Will you stay home again or are you okay to go to school again?"
"Well, I have to go today. I don't want to miss any more lessons or I will fail my dance audition for an important school performance."

"You're right, but what performance? You didn't tell me about it yet." Fiona frowns and gives me a questioning look.

"Sorry, I forgot to tell you with everything that's been going on. We will have a dance performance in front of everyone's parents, friends etc. but only the best of each year will have the opportunity of a solo part."
"Oh wow that would be a great chance!" We both get too hyped knowing how much I would love to get the spot.
Julie now also wakes up and we all eat a quick breakfast. After making each other's hair, we walk to school together.

"I'm so thankful to have you two! You're the best at distracting me, from Bryan AND the stress."
"No need to thank. You also help us in every situation you can." Julie hugs me and Fiona joins. "That's true! I love you."

I frown my eyebrows and look around when I hear a laughter. An unfamiliar girl is pointing at us and obviously enjoying it a bit too much.
"What's so funny?" I take a few steps towards her.
Fiona grabs my shoulder "D-Don't... Just ignore her and let's walk away."
"Afraid of me Fiona? Did I break your little heart, huh?"
I don't understand what's going on. "Who the f*ck is she?" I ask.

"Jessica. Nice to meet you." She stretches out her hand. "Ahem, not." And again an annoying giggle.
Fiona quickly takes mine and Julie's hand and we leave the scene.

"WATCH OUT!" I manage to shout before this so called Jessica can't hear me anymore.
"What was this??" I've never seen Julie as confused but the thing it, I still don't get it myself.

Fiona tells us a short resume about Jack and Jessica so we're up to date. Before each of us leaves towards different buildings, Fiona promises to give us more details during our lunch break.

Back at home, back in my bed, my head is once again filled up with thoughts. But to my own surprise, they're not about Bryan but Reggie.
I have his hoodie on and try to think of a possibility to see him. I mean always and not only for a few minutes while he's giving a concert. Not that I wouldn't enjoy that...
Also, why can Julie and Fiona see them? Why not me? They're the perfect proof that there must be a way I just don't know how yet.
Fiona is related to Alex and Julie lived in the house whose old garage the boys used to practice in. Great, they have a connection and I don't.
What about love? Can't that be a reason as well? Oh my gosh why am I already thinking about love I just broke up with Bryan.

"HE'S A GHOST!!!" I shout through the whole dorm, startling myself. That wasn't enough though. "AAAAHHHHHH AAAAAAHHH" I scream into my pillow with all the force my lungs have.

I need to stop thinking about Reggie. Let's concentrate on my dance and soccer audition which are both next week. I want to get a solo part and get into the university's girls soccer team.

"I won't fail either of them!"

"Yeesss Melanie that's the way to think." I didn't even notice that Julie and Fiona entered the dorm.

"Oh hey, sorry." I laugh and stand up from my bed. "When we're already at it, do you want to see my choreography?"

"I think you already know the answer." Fiona answers and she's right. "Just let us change into more comfortable clothes and we're ready to cheer for you." Julie adds.

We decide to go to one of the schools dance studios so that I have more space. I connect my phone with the bluetooth speaker and stretch a bit.
Fiona and Julie seem very excited. I will show them different dance styles like I have to on the audition for the judges to choose the best.
I already made a playlist earlier and start to play Vivaldi's Four Seasons for ballet.

Next up is contemporary accompanied by James Arthur's Say you won't let you go.

The girls already look hypnotized and amazed but there are two styles left, jazz and pop.

They clap as loud as they can when I finish and their looks make me proud. I think I've got this!