Focus On Me | Yeongyu ✓

08 | goodies and sweets

soobin's pov ~
"taehyun, you really don't have to," i whispered to him but he just kept ignoring me.

it's my birthday and taehyun forced me to come to this bakery, which he knows i love.

but he's paying for it.

"taehyun...i feel bad."

"shut up," he told me as he focused his attention back to ordering.

"okay, sheesh. but next time, i'm paying."

"i said shut up." i sighed and rolled my eyes. this guy really has guts to provoke me like this. but i'll allow it just this one time since he's doing something nice for me.

taehyun forces me to pay all the time. i actually don't mind at all because i can actually afford a lot of things that normal people can't.

i've never known what it's like to go out and have to worry about how much money i have left. but i know for a fact that taehyun knows exactly how that's like so that's why i fucking hate it when he does this.

he's so stubborn.

taehyun thanked the worker as he took the bag full of goodies.

we then sat on one of the tables. this whole place was so cute and pretty. i would live here if i could.

he cleared his throat, forcing me to pay attention to him.

"oh, uh...thanks. i really appreciate it," i said. but he rolled his eyes at me. "what?"

"you're so awkward. i've been your friend for how many years now? why are you like this?"

"well um..." he stared at me for a while and then continued to open the bag.

"do i scare you?"

"n-no. not at all. we just haven't hung out in a while...you've been so busy with...those guys..." i blurted out by accident.

shit.

"those guys?" neither of us talked for a moment.

"um, what?"

"don't act stupid, i heard you already." i took a deep breath as i forced myself to tell him how i really feel.

"look. we used to be really close but lately it feels like you haven't been paying attention to me. i know i sound so selfish right now but...i'm your friend too. don't forget that."

"bitch you nag me twenty four seven. how the hell would i forget about you?" he brutally stated.

"...just, give me the bag!" i snatched it from his hands and pouted, causing him to giggle a bit.

"you're so weird."

"you're weirder."

"whatever..."

"...tell me about that guy that used to record me and follow me all the time. who is he? i know you're friends with him," i persisted.

he looked like he didn't want to tell me and hesitated before he spoke.

"...i'm going to be honest with you just because you're my friend, but don't think of me as someone who tells people my friend's secrets."

"got it."

"he likes you."

"w-what?!" i shouted. people started to stare at us so i lowered my voice. "how? he doesn't even know who i am."

"well...sometimes looks can make someone fall in love...i guess...i don't know?"

"a...a guy likes me?!"

"guy? why'd you add the word guy? so what?" he asked.

"it's just...i've never really looked more into my sexuality...my parents have always forced me to date girls and...it just makes me happy," i explained.

"oh yeah. sometimes i forget you have strict parents."

"anyways...why has he stopped?"

"...sorry?"

"why has he stopped looking at me? i mean...not that i care, it's just that i wanna know why he even recorded me in the first place. i feel like it's my business, since i was kinda involved. i wanna know more about him."

"i don't think you can know more about him. it'll be super awkward, especially if he knows you know he recorded you. knowing both of you, neither of you are good at handling awkward stuff like this," he told me.

"taehyun, take me to him. i wanna talk to him. i wanna ask about his feelings and why he likes me. please."

"...fine! ugh, you're so fucking annoying."

"let's go right now."

"right now?! are you crazy?!"

"what? isn't he your friend? it's only two pm, i'm sure he'll let you inside."

"i know but...but i...never mind, let's go."

weird.

taehyun never stutters and he just did. it's obvious that he doesn't want me to meet him, but why? what's so bad about introducing one of your friends to another friend you have?

whatever, i should be thankful. taehyun is helping me, again.

he's such a good friend and i really don't deserve his friendship.