Focus On Me | Yeongyu ✓

13 | issues

huening kai's pov ~
i moved to the kitchen and lowered my voice to get some privacy. they probably still heard me though because there isn't a wall to separate the kitchen and the living room in taehyun's place.

i answered the phone to hear my mother's voice.

"my precious son...whatever happens, don't come home," she told me. she sounded quiet but i could still hear the shakiness and panic in her voice.

"what?! why?! mom! is dad hurting you again?!" i whispered but shouted at the same time. she didn't answer for a minute.

"...kai, i love you so much and i never want anything bad to ever happen to you. so please, stay the night at taehyun's place. do not come ho—." the call ended without her finishing her sentence. which meant he probably caught her...

i stood there for a minute, staring at my phone when suddenly, tears rolled down my face.

"kai? are you okay?" yeonjun asked me. i looked behind me to see everyone just staring at me.

it was humiliating.

"kai!"

i quickly ran outside and slammed the door to sit on the stairs that led up to taehyun's house.

i just sat there.

and i balled my eyes out in fear, anger, sadness, and every single negative emotion that i felt.

why is my life like this?

soobin's pov ~
"why'd he just storm off?!"

"that's something that you won't be able to comprehend, yeonjun," taehyun stated.

i purposely fell out of the position that i was in and yeonjun immediately pointed at me.

"you lost."

"really yeonjun?! now isn't the time you stupid douchebag!" taehyun snapped as he also stood up.

"stupid douchebag?!"

"yeonjun, calm down. he's got a point. i don't know what's been up with you recently, but you've been acting really rude," beomgyu agreed with taehyun.

"i also agree but it's not even just that. from what i've seen, all you guys do is fight twenty four seven! imagine how huening kai feels! i definitely don't know what happens in his home, but it sure does sound like his parents fight all the fucking time. so when he hangs out with his only friends, which is a place where he can get away from his life at home, i'm sure he wouldn't wanna hear fighting and arguing because that's all he ever hears! you know what, i might not be the perfect fit to comfort huening kai because i don't know him well, but i know for a fact that he needs someone in his life that aren't you people. so maybe, you all need to look at yourselves in the mirror because you all are the exact same assholes that don't even notice it!"

i aggressively stared at them for a minute. i could actually feel my face burning up from how pissed off i was. so i took a second to calm down before i stormed out of the house, just like huening kai did.

and i found him sitting on the steps crying.

"hey."

"oh...hi," he responded as he wiped his tears. "i heard you guys in there and i uh...and i heard what you said...thanks..."

"...they were being idiots so i just felt like i had to say something."

we both stared at the ground in silence.

"...ever since i was a kid, my father would never be home...he was always out and i remember always asking my mom where he was all the time...she told me he was having fun...turns out, that fun was getting drunk and cheating on my mother," he continued. "i didn't know that, so i always prayed that he would come home so we could be a big happy family...i thought he was a good guy but...i just wish he never came back because...because every time he's drunk, he comes home and he...he hurts both of us...and taehyun was and still is such a great friend...he always let me stay at his place whenever i couldn't take it anymore...but the thing is, i'm also mad at my mom because she always tells me to stay away whenever the abuse gets really bad but...how can i stay away when he's hurting her! it's like there's always this fear and thought that i have in the back of my head. that fear is what if i come home one day...and she's dead? what if that bastard kills her?! what do i do then?!"

"...you know, i won't ever know how you feel because you've truly been through so much but i'm always here to listen and...i sure do know how parents are. they just don't know what teenagers and kids go through...i can't speak for you and you're family but from what you've told me, you're mom is thinking about you but she's also being selfish. you don't want to see her hurt and you want to do something about it but she doesn't want you to because she doesn't want to see you hurt...if you wanna stay out here for a bit, you can...is it okay if i head inside?"

he didn't reply so i walked away but he instantly held my hand.

"...i know this is weird and awkward but...can you please give me a hug? i really need one right now..." i smiled.

"of course!" we shared a hug. "does this mean we're officially friends now?" he laughed a bit.

"definitely...thank you so much...you really helped me."

"if you ever need anything, i'll be here for you, friend." we let go of each other and both kept smiling. "well, i'm going to head in now. take as much time as you need out here."

he nodded and i went inside.

"what did you tell him?" beomgyu immediately asked as i came in.

"...something that he needed to hear..."