sarah paulson mental health one shots

not a burden

amanda - not a burden
content warning : suicide and self harm
authors note : amanda is your girlfriend

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amanda pushed you onto the bed and continued kissing you. she ran her hands down your body and you pushed her off.

"hey are you okay?" amanda looked at you with a concerned look.

"i'm fine. i'm just not in the mood."

"that's okay. do you wanna cuddle?"

you just wanted her to hold you but you felt disgusting. tears filled your eyes and you

buried your face in your hands.

"hey what's wrong?"

"nothing i'm fine."

she took both of your hands into hers.

"talk to me. something's been off with you lately."

you wanted to tell her everything. about the self harming and the depression but you just couldn't. you didn't want to burden her with more issues.

"i'm fine."

"you're not."

the two of you sat in silence for a few seconds.

"i've been self harming again."

"y/n-"

"i'm sorry amanda."

"hey hey hey. don't apologize." she pulled you into her arms.

"i just don't want to burden you."

"you're not a burden baby. we'll get through this together."

you rested your head in her chest and fell asleep there.

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authors note : this is really short and really sucks but i can live with it