You're only 17... (frerard fanfic) (teacher X student) COMPLETED

Chapter 5: Lunch

I walk into the art room, and I see Mr. Way sitting at his desk, just typing something on his computer.

"Hey Frank!" He said. He seemed a lot happier than earlier, maybe things got better for him. "Hey, you seem a lot less stressed than earlier!" I said. He smiled, "I am, and plus I'm glad to see you"

He started blushing a little. I still can't tell if that's just something he naturally does or if he feels the same, but I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me like that.

I walked in with just a water bottle. "You don't have a lunch?" He asked me. I didn't want to eat anyways, I would've been fine. "Oh, yeah, no I don't. But it's okay, I'm really not hungry."

He split his sandwich in half and handed me a piece, "I know it's just one lunch, but I just want to make sure that you're eating." He said.

He's so concerned for me, I can't tell if I'm feeling guilty or happy that someone actually kind of cares about me.

"Thanks. You're so nice to me, I feel guilty almost" He looked up at me, "Why is that?" He replied. "I don't know, I've never had someone care about me, I feel like I'm not worth your time." I said.

He genuinely looked surprised that I said that nobody cared about me. "What about your parents? I know you say you have no friends, but don't you have parents?"

He asked. I laughed a little, "I never met my dad, I don't know who the hell he could be, and my mom is never home, between work and doing whatever it is she does after work. She's never been there for me, I've always felt lonely and I hate it. I've never had any real friends and my only family member I've ever actually met isn't even around most of the time, and when she is, all we do is argue over the most meaningless things. It just makes me miserable, and makes me want to end my life"

He got up from his chair, and he grabbed my hands.

He had the most concerned and sad look on his face, "Hey, you're not ever lonely. I'm gonna be here for you from now on and I don't want you to ever try to end your life. I don't want you to ever self harm again, or ever say that you have nobody again. Okay?"

I nodded my head, looking down. He lifted my head with his hand, and I thought I was about to have a panic attack. "Don't look down, be confident." He said with a smile.

We weren't touching anymore, but he was close to me, and we were looking right at eachother.

I got the random urge to kiss him, but I fought it of course.

There is no way in hell I could ever kiss him without consent... which I'll never get so it doesn't matter.

I sat at my seat that I sit at during class. "You don't have to be so far away, come sit with me at my desk" Mr. Way insisted.

I really don't know why he wanted me to stay for lunch, this is so awkward.

I noticed on his desk a picture of him and 3 other guys. One holding a guitar, one holding a bass, and one holding drumsticks. "What's that picture? If you don't mind me asking-" I said to him.

He picked it up and showed it to me. "Ah, you noticed?" I nodded and studied the picture. It looks pretty recent. "You in a band or something?"

He chuckled a little, "I used to be during college. I took music classes just because I needed another elective, and I ended up being part of a band. We never got far though, we only recorded a song for our project in school." He explained.

"That's so cool!" I said. He looked down and smiled, "Yeah, I ended up being the singer, I don't know how the hell that happened but it did."

I tried to make eye contact with him like he does with me, and it worked.

God his eyes are beautiful.

"You sing?" I asked. He looked back down, blushing of embarrassment, "Maybe" We both smiled.

"Damn, that's really cool!" I went on, "I kinda wanna be in a band one day as a rhythm guitarist. Music has always been my number one passion, honestly, it's the reason I'm still alive."

He looked so excited after I said that, "Do it! You won't regret it, I swear it's the most fun you'll probably ever have in life. Besides, you're probably really good at guitar, I'm sure you'd make a great rhythm guitarist"

I looked down, embarrassed after saying it, even though he seemed pretty excited for me. "You think so?" I asked.

Both of us were blushing and trying to hide it. He looked up to me again, "I've never heard you play but I bet you're amazing. It'd be pretty cool if I got to hear you play some time" He said.

Am I over thinking or did he just say what I think he's saying?

I started shaking, but I tried to hide it. I don't wanna sound like I'm trying to force us to meet up outside of school, but I do want to get to know him.

"If you want sometime I could do that..." I said. He was trying not to smile too much, I could tell that he was doing everything he could to hide it.

"Cool." He said smiling.

I don't know why, but his smile is adorable. His small teeth are so cute, everything about him, his black hair, pale skin, beautiful eyes, perfect face, he's so perfect, I honestly envy him.

There was kind of an awkward silence for a moment. I suck at starting conversations, I have no idea how to talk to him right now.

"So what was it like being in a band? Even if it wasn't exactly real, you must have had a pretty similar experience to a real band."

It seemed like it made him really happy talking about music and being in a band, I wish I could explain how passionate about music I am but I feel like it can't be put into words, it's just something that I love more than anything.

We had a whole conversation that lasted the rest of lunch bell. He is so easy to talk and listen to. Shit, he's so fucking perfect.

Eventually the lunch bell ended.

"Thanks for inviting me down, Mr. Way... it's nice having someone to talk to." I said. He smiled a little. I know I say it every 10 seconds but he's fucking adorable.

"Yeah, do you wanna come down everyday? It's nice to have company and I don't know... you just seem really interesting." I looked down, trying not to blush too much.

"Yeah, that'd be great. Thanks, Mr. Way." I said.

He giggled a little, "Actually, you can call me Gerard."

I looked up at him, "Your name is Gerard? That's such a cool name, I've never heard it before." He laughed a little again, "Haha, thanks, you have no idea how many people have called me Gerald or Jared because they've never heard the name Gerard."

I smiled and left the classroom. I still have butterflies in my stomach even after leaving, he's just an amazing person, ya know?

I completely forgot that he said that he was also gay.

I don't even believe it, like what are the odds?

And I noticed when he grabbed my hands, he didn't have a ring. It doesn't mean anything, I just think he's really nice and really cute.

It's just a small crush that will go away soon. They always do.