Me and my best friend - Sebastian Stan x Reader

28 - Wake up

I held his hand thightly and watched him as he slowly breathed in and out. It made me wonder how such a peaceful man could be the reason to so much chaos?

After hours of waiting Sebastian finally got out of surgery. His mom had been here with my family to support me, but they left after 1 hour. They could probably feel I wasn't in the mood for company. Anthony was waiting in the hallway. I had always loved Anthony, but now I knew how much he really meant to me. He would always be there no matter what, and that was more than anyone could ask for, especially me.

"Your mom left you a card before she left", I told Sebastian and wiped a tear away from my cheek. "I told her she should've stayed to give it to you herself but she insisted to keep my family occupied while you're asleep." It calmed me down to talk to him, even though I knew he couldn't listen yet.

"Dear Sebby", I read out loud from the pink card his mom had left with the words 'get well soon' written on the outside. "Can't wait to see you when you wake up. Call me as soon as your toungue works again. Love you tons, Mamă." I put the card down before I continued to talk.

"Oh and they all left flowers again, since you didn't get to see the old ones before they died. Except Anthony, who said it would be a waist of time unless they're fake. And X-Factor started again. Of course it's only the auditions, but some of them were pretty good. There was this one girl who reminded me of myself because she was so nervous, just like I was when we were shooting our first scene together, you know the kissing scene. God I was shitting my pants that day. I just remember being so confident now that I was finally wearing my costume and then you suddenly walked up to me and was like 'should we do toungue stuff or what do you think'." I let out a light chuckle before I continued.

"And then because I was so dumb I just said you could decide, and of course you had to flirt and say you wanted to try the toungue stuff. And I just remember how crazy I was about you." I took a deep breath. "I still am, you know... I am so crazy in love with you."

The tears blurred my sight and I let go of his hand to wipe them away when I heard a groan. I looked up and saw Sebastian furrowing his brows. I grabbed his hand again, and stroked his cheek with my other hand. "Sebastian", I whispered hoping he would answer.

He slowly opened his eyes and his blue ones starred into mine. "You're awake", I sighed and felt a tear running down my cheek. He looked around the room and had a puzzled look on his face. He opened his mouth to speak, but since his throat was so dry and had been for almost a week he couldn't. "Don't worry, I'll explain it all later", I mumbled and my eyes met his again. He formed a tired smile on his lips before closing his eyes again. I kissed his cheek. He was alive.

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"Alright, just remember to take your medicine and you'll be okay", Pete explained to Sebastian before walking out of the room. Sebastian only answered with a nod, since he still had trouble talking.

"I brought chess", I said as soon as we were alone and found the game in my bag. Anthony had forced me to get some air, so I decided to go home and get some stuff, since we couldn't go home until Sebastian was 100% okay. It had been 2 days since he had been in surgery, and now all we could do was wait.

He smiled softly as I packed out the board and placed the small chessmen. "White or black", I asked to which he answered by pointing at the white king. Then we started to play.

"My mom called today and wanted to know if Charlie could stay at our place now that she's on vacation", I said and watched his first move. "I told her I had to talk with you about it..." He cut me off with a hum so I would make my move. "As I was saying, I wanted to hear your opinion", I sighed. He grabbed the pen and notebook which was laying on the nightstand and began to write. 'She can borrow the guest room, as long as she doesn't complain when I make you scream.' I rolled my eyes, even though I got butterflies. "Let's think about getting you home first alright", I chuckled and made my move.

We finished the game, which he won, and I put the board away. He showed me his notebook. 'I'm sorry'. I furrowed my brows. "Sorry for what", I asked and watched him as he wrote something down. 'For everything'. I stroked his cheek and smiled, holding back my tears. "It's okay, you didn't know this was going to happen", I mumbled and grabbed his hand. "This isn't your fault." 'I shoul've told you', he wrote and continued. 'If I had you would still be friends with Chris'.

I felt the tears running down my cheek. I couldn't keep them back anymore, not while he was blaming himself for Chris' actions. "What Chris said and did wasn't your fault", I said and squeezed his hand. "He's a grown man, and he should act like one." 'I don't know what happened between you guys, but have you tried to hear him out?' "I gave him the chance once, and you almost died, so I'm not doing it again", I scoffed. Sebastian looked a bit hurt, when I reminded him of his incedent. "Sebastian", I sighed and put both my hands around his. "This is something with me and Chris, okay? I can take care of myself." He smiled and picked up the notebook. 'That's why I love you.' "I love you too", I said and wiped the tears away before placing a soft kiss on his cheek. But before I touched him he turned his head and pressed his lips against mine. I slowly pulled away and blushed by his smile. I missed this. I missed him.

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A/N
Sooooo
It's currently 9:30am in my country and I have to be at work at 11
And I was at school yesterday to like 11pm... because I was at a party...
So I'm dead

Also I think Sebastian is soooo cute in this!
Him trying to get Chris and Y/N back as friends, him taking the blame for everything...

But yeah
I want to hear what you guys think?
Is there something you want to happen?