Me and my best friend - Sebastian Stan x Reader

38 - A graveyard

"Sebastian no", I said with a stern tone as I turned around in the bed to face my tired and beautiful boyfriend. "But why", he whined and put his lower lip over the upper lip, looking at me with puppy eyes. Normally it would've worked, but I were too damn tired and I blamed him. "I'm hungover and annoyed, both being your fault, so if you're hungry make it yourself", I scoffed and punched him with a pillow. He tried to dodge my punch, but as his attempt failed and he was to distracted on the pillow, he rolled out of the bed, falling down on the ground. "Ow", he winced and slowly crawled back in bed, where I were laughing my ass off, even though it hurt everywhere in my body.

"Okay now we're even", he mumbled and opened his arms so I could cuddle into his chest. I looked up and kissed his chin. "Do you have any plans today, other than cooking breakfast", I asked and cupped his face so I could see his pretty blue eyes. He kissed my forehead before he answered. "Yeah, Chris asked if I would come over for a drink tonight." I hummed by confusion. "Just the 2 of you", I mumbled and avoided eye contact. "Yeah", he sighed and furrowed his brows. "He didn't say why but I have a feeling it's important." "Huh", I said under my breath. He looked down at me and as the perfect man he is he didn't even get a double chin. Had he lost some weight? "Huh what?", he grinned and smiled. I shook my head. "Nothing", I answered and formed a fake smile on my lips. "Just surprised you guys are that close I guess."

He cocked his one eyebrow and smirked. "Are you jealous", he grinned earning an eye roll from me. "I'm kidding. But yeah we're starting to talk a bit more again, but don't worry I will be home early." I hummed and placed a soft kiss on his chest. "Then you have plenty of time to get rid of that beard", I giggled and made him whine again. "Come on you like the beard", he sighed and laid down on his back. I put my arm around him and rested my head on the other. "When did I say I liked it", I scoffed as I started to stroke his chest. He looked up at me with a mischievous smile.

"I know you have a daddy kink so don't pretend you don't like it." My eyes widened and I dropped my jaw. "Oh my god", I mumbled and rolled out of bed. "I hate you so much." I put on his T-shirt from yesterday and got up on my feet to go to the bathroom. "I know that isn't true", he said and sat up in the bed, resting his head on the headboard. "You love your daddy." I shook my head and closed the door to the bathroom. Why did he have to be so hot every time I'm hungover?

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"Alright I love you", I said as he walked towards me and pulled me in for a quick kiss. "Love you", he mumbled and picked up his keys. I watched him as he put on his jacket and opened the door. "Be safe", I said a bit loud to be sure he could hear me. "I always am", he grinned before shutting the door behind him leaving me alone in the apartment. But I didn't plan on staying for long. I looked out the window in the living room to make sure he was gone before I grabbed my coat and my heavy bag. I put on my boots and walked out in the hallway, locked the door behind me and took the elevator downstairs.

Luckily it was raining which meant paparazzi weren't outside with their cameras. I walked down the street and enjoyed the sound of raindrops hitting the hat of my coat. Turning to the left after 5 minutes I could see my destination. The church was a big old building with white walls and a tall clock tower.

I closed the gate behind me as I walked into the graveyard. I quickly found the right tombstone, knowing where it would be after spending hours of time there. I picked up the yellow and white flowers from my bag and put them on the grave and removed the old ones that other people had placed to show their compassion.

"Hey Charlie", I sighed and sat down on the blanket I had taken out of my bag. "I'm sorry I'm late but I'm blaming you for the weather." I sighed before continuing to talk. "It went perfectly at the party yesterday, just as we all imagined. Sebastian really got surprised. You should've seen his face he looked like he was ready to shit his pants", I giggled and looked around to see if anyone was looking at me. "Oh and I know this is gods house but I have to say it: we finally did it! You know sex! And I was so nervous but he was so sweet and I have a feeling he was nervous too. But it didn't matter."

"He and Chris are hanging out together right now", I sighed and played with the hem of the coat. "I haven't really talked with Chris since... you know... so I was a bit surprised but it's okay. If Sebastian is happy I won't be in his way." I took a deep breath to calm myself down. "I just wish you could be here and see it, you know? How much we miss you." I wiped away a tear. "I want to hear a response from you, see your reaction, hug you when I crossed the finish-line. Stuff like that. And it just feels like I'm missing something knowing it will never come back. And it's not because I'm not happy, because I am. I have Sebastian, my dream job, the apartment, but there's a hole inside me that no one can ever replace. I just wish I could know you found your peace."

I cried for a while. "God this wasn't supposed to be sad", I mumbled and wiped my face with a tissue I had in my pocket. I looked at my phone. 6:34PM. "Well I have to go. I just wanted to see you." I got up and packed the blanket back into the bag. "Happy birthday Charlie."

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A/N
Hey!
Sorry I haven't been posting for a while, I've been busy!

I hope you enjoy this chapter because I think it's kinda emotional and sweet.
But comment what you think!

Till next time, buddies;)