Me and my best friend - Sebastian Stan x Reader

44 - The baby

"He really said that", Chris gasped and ran his fingers through his hair. I nodded. "I'm going to be a stepmom."

You're probably wondering what the hell is going on right? What was I talking about? Why were I going to be a stepmom? Well it was true. And no Sebastian didn't cheat even though he lied to me. To make a long story short let me explain what happened 2 days before I talked with Chris.

After the phone call and Sebastian told me he was going to be a dad I thought he cheated. He realised how bad it sounded and quickly explained that it wasn't the case. No. He had been a sperm doner for years, since he didn't have a partner, and thought if he couldn't have a family he could help others. When we got together he didn't even remember. Then 2 weeks ago he got a mail from the bank that his sperm had been chosen, and of course he tried to stop it. And he thought he did. Until the phone call. They told him they didn't stop the transaction in time, and now a woman is going around with his sperm inside her. Giving him a baby. A baby he always wanted. The woman wanted him to be a part of the baby's life since she doesn't have a partner, which made me the stepmom. And I didn't take it well. I basically just ran away and slept on Chris's couch.

Oops...

And now that I've told you everything let's go back to me and Chris.

"What are you going to do", Chris asked and looked at me with worried eyes. I tilted my head feeling the tears forming in my eyes. "He wants to be a dad, Chris", I cried. "I can't keep him away from his dream." "Honey...", he sighed and pulled me in for a hug. I relaxed my arms at my sides while crying into his chest as he hugged me tightly in the middle of his living room.

"I don't want to be a stepmom, I don't", I sobbed as he stroked my hair. "You're gonna be alright", he mumbled into the top of my head. I looked up at him. "He lied, Chris. He could've just told me from the beginning." "He didn't know hon", he sighed and let go of me. "And I'm not saying he didn't fuck up, but this wasn't his fault. And I know how fucking hard this is going to be for you because it is his dream, but trust me, you have to keep on moving. Don't let this ruin your happiness, no matter how fucking stupid or difficult this is going to be. He loves you, Y/N, don't ever forget that."

"You're right", I sniffled and wiped my tears away with my sleeve. "Whatever god is planing this isn't going to ruin my happiness." "That's it", Chris lightly chuckled and handed me my phone. "Now I suggest you call him and go home so you guys can talk." He handed me his keys. "Take my car. And it's not up for discussion, just do as I say." He pushed me out of his door towards his car. I thanked him as I got in but as the Chris he was he told me to hurry home instead of waisting my time.

I arrived at the big building and walked upstairs. The door was unlocked. I walked inside. The apartment was extremely clean, like the queen of England was expected. Not even a single piece of dust was anywhere to be seen. Sebastian was in the spare room clicking on his computer. I slowly opened the door making him look up. He hadn't been sleeping for days.

"Y/N ", he sighed of relief and quickly got up to hug me. I didn't hug him back. "Where the hell have you been?" "Chris let me stay at his house", I mumbled and pulled away. "Had to clear my head you know?" He smiled and kissed my forehead. "God I missed you so much." I felt comfort. Until I glanced at his screen.

"So you're saying yes", I said trying to hide my disappointment. He nodded proudly and showed me his computer with pictures of baby stuff on his screen. "I'm going to be a dad", he chuckled. He was excited. Too excited. "And I understand this is going to be difficult but..." "Difficult?", I scoffed and took a step back. "Seb I don't want children." "I know, and I didn't plan on it either but now I finally have the opportunity and... I don't know I just feel so excited."

"But why are you doing this to me?" I couldn't keep in my tears anymore. "Hey hey hey", he said and reached out for my hand but I avoided it. "It's not like I can do anything now." I shook my head and wiped my tears away. "You can do something. It's called 'saying no'", I sobbed. He looked at me in disbelief. "I can't say no knowing I wouldn't be able to see my child, my dream grow up." "What about my dream Seb?", I cried and crossed my arms. He didn't answer. "Huh?" "Y/N I..."

"No no no, you can't do that", I scoffed and shook my head. "We've been together for so long Sebastian. A year. And you didn't tell me anything. I would've forgiven you if you actually had forgotten but no. You just had to keep it from me when you found out didn't you? And I understand how much you want to be a dad, but this isn't the right way. I wanted to make you happy Sebastian. Because that is what love is. And yet you keep screwing up, over and over." I didn't let him say anything before I continued. "I want to marry you. Start a life together for real. Move into a house, always love each other. I would even give birth to your fucking children, not because I want to, but because I love you. I would've done it for you. But now... I'm not so sure."

My heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest. My stomach was hurting. My eyes and head were sore. Yet he was still speechless. What the fuck was wrong with him?! "I'm done Sebastian. For good."

I turned around and walked into the dining room to take my bag as he grabbed my hand. "Don't do this", he cried, tears running down his cheeks. "Don't do this to me." I took a deep breath and pushed his hand away. "I'm not doing this to you", I mumbled and wiped away my tears. "I'm doing this for me." I tried to walk away but he suddenly got down on his knees and pulled in my shirt. "Please don't go, I love you so much, please don't go", he sobbed. "I need you."

I swallowed the lump in my throat before saying the words that I were going to regret as soon as they left my mouth. "I wish it would be that easy Sebastian. But this isn't healthy. You and me? We can't be together. We never could. We were just to blind to realise it." He stopped crying and let go of me. "Goodbye Sebastian." I turned around and walked out of the door, knowing it was going to be the last time I saw him. The last time I was with the man of my dreams. At least he was going to be happy.

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A/N
Okay guyyyys...
Only one chapter left and I leave you here crying:(
But it has been a long journey and it has to end somewhere and we're almost there:)
Thank you for being here!