Me and my best friend - Sebastian Stan x Reader

42 - Baby steps

Scar-bar

You
Scarlett?
U up?

Scar-bar
Of course
It's monday and I have Rose
Why?

You
Just wanted to ask you something

Scar-bar
Hit me

You
When did you get Rose?
Like when did you know
you wanted to be a mom?

Scar-bar
Well I didn't
Kinda just happened
Why?

You
It's just
Seb and I talked about our future together some days ago
And he mentioned having kids

Scar-bar
And you aren't ready yet?

You
Well that's the problem
I don't think I ever want kids
And the worst part is I know
how much he wants them

Scar-bar
Yeah he always talked about
getting a family...
But why don't you want to have kids?

You
I don't know if I can
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I don't know
It doesn't feel right ya know

Scar-bar
How did he take it

You
He said we would figure it out
but I know how much it hurts him
Haven't talked about it since

Scar-bar
I think you guys should just
take it slow and see how it's
going to be in the future
Kids or no kids
You two always seem to work
things out

You
Thanks Scar

Scar-bar
No prob
Just remember to be honest
Or else you'll have a crazy ex
trust me I have 1 who I can't get
rid off because we forgot the condom one time

You
Always

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I put the phone down in my back as I walked up to the well known house. Before I got to the front door Dodger ran towards me happy as ever and I greeted him with my baby voice. "Hey boy", I said and pet him. Chris walked up to us, only wearing shorts and sunglasses. "Sorry", he mumbled and pulled on his T-shirt. "Didn't expect you so soon." "It's okay", I mumbled trying to shake off the akwardness. "Sebastian wasn't home so I had nothing else to do." I followed Chris back into his garden and we sat down on his terrace at the small table, looking out on the pool.

Since me and Sebastian had a bit of akward tension between us after our... baby talk, I decided to at least do something he wanted. So there I was, talking with Chris.

"I'm sorry I haven't called you any sooner", I mumbled, feeling the akward tension between us grow. He handed me a beer, which I gladly took and sipped it. "It's my fault I know", he sighed and leaned back in his seat. "I should've been the one who called instead of putting Sebastian in the middle of it." "It's okay", I sighed and crossed my legs. "I wouldn't have listened otherwise." He smiled and put his sunglasses up on his hair. "You're just the same stubborn princess I met a year ago", he chuckled while scratching his beard. I hummed and smiled. "And you're still the alcoholic I met a year ago", I grinned as I winked and sipped my drink. He shook his head with a big smile on his face. "You kinda have to when your best friend doesn't wanna talk to you."

I bit my lower lip trying to hide my embarrassment. Of course I was the 'best friend' he was talking about. But did he really have to say it like that? I mean he was my friend too but he fucked up anyways didn't he?

"Chris I came here to talk not for you to talk me down." "I'm sorry I just...", he said and hesitated to think about his next words. "I'm sorry okay. I should've been there for you guys." I furrowed my brows. Was he feeling guilty? "Chris you've been there more than enough", I sighed and put down my beer. "You took care of the funeral when we couldn't. You took care of the police when we couldn't. You took care of my mom, Chris. She lived in your house because I couldn't help her." I put my hand on his arm earning a soft smile from him. "I haven't been the best friend, because I was living in the past. But now I'm starting to think of the future. And don't you think for a second you weren't there, because you're the reason I'm okay, because you never left me, even though I didn't want it. But you didn't care."

"And here I thought I was the one who was going to be cliche", he chuckled. His voice almost broke. I grabbed his hand for a squeeze and mirrored his happy smile. "Don't worry you can be cliche for the rest of our friendship", I giggled and winked. I let go of his hand and picked up my cold beer again. "But please don't tell anyone." We laughed and forgot the awkwardness and sadness.

"So how's life going", I asked him as I emptied my bottle. He ran his fingers through his hair. "Good actually", he sighed and handed me a new beer and opened one for himself too. "Started working again. Seb, Mackie and I was going to celebrate it next week but something came up." "What", I mumbled and opened my beer. I didn't even like beer, just felt like it was right. He didn't answer so I looked back at him. He had a big smile and... was he blushing? "Does Evans have a hot date?" I couldn't help but laugh when his cheeks got pink. "EVANS GOT A DATE Y'ALL!" "Stop", he grinned and playfully pushed me. "Stop pushing and tell me everything!" He sighed and took a sip before he answered. "Can't tell you who she is but I know she's special. She's no Charlie but close." He winked and I could feel the happiness spread in my veins. "If you're happy I'm happy", I said and winked. And I meant it.

"What about you?" I hummed and looked up at him. "Seb told me you had the big 'future' talk." I nodded and put down my half full bottle on the table. "Yeah we did", I answered. He cocked his brow. "Didn't go as planned?" I shook my head. "Definitely not", I sighed and crossed my arms over my chest as I leaned back in my seat. "We're just in different places I guess." "I don't want to get in the middle of it but I know you'll figure it out in some way", he said and put back in his sunglasses. I looked down at my feet with a bad feeling in my stomach. "I hope you're right..."

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A/N

Y/n is trying to get her life together Huh?
And I love writing it:)

But I was thinking it is time for this story to end:(
Sad i know

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