tough - BE

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THE SHOW WAS HORRIBLE????? THE TENSION OF IT ALL PLUS I EMBARRASSED MYSELF BY STARTING TO CRY. Crying in front of 20 thousand people wasn't my best moment but to be fair billie almost cried too so it wasn't all on me, although it did spark up a couple rumors. It's the next day I will sadly not be performing but that's what billie wants im not trying to make her any less happy. What I am going to do is ruin Scott's face like he did too my life.
Bat, gloves, knife? check. IM JOKING. I'm not gonna kill him why do you take everything so serious jeez. I look like a mess with puffy eyes from crying last night and staying up looking at videos of billie and I together. Lexie is finally back she doesn't know what happened and I'm trying to keep it that way because she'll believe the pictures and slap me across the face. I have...history that could ruin this whole thing even more for me. I'm not like that no more though. I'm sitting in Lexie's Black Range Rover outside of Scott's house. Not knowing exactly what I'm going to say or do. Why would he do that? He cheated on me! Not the other way around there's no reason he should be jealous. Maybe it's cause he realized what he's missing. For a second all of me belonged to some girl I met at an Ice cream shop. I wish that second could've been years. I got out of the car and knocked on the door.

"Who is it?" I heard him say from inside

Im not gonna respond. He opened the door in a robe with a a girl on him ofc in a bikini she low key hot no lie but that's not important.

"Girl he's a dick I recommend you run while you can" I told the girl then letting myself in

"You mad I told yo chick the truth or what?" He laughed

He sent the girl upstairs and adjusted his robe.

"I'm mad you sexually assaulted me then used it against me" I said

"It was a quick peck sweetheart, plus your girls name is billie, she mad ugly, and she got green hair! I'm saving you the trouble" He said pouring himself a glass of wine

Billie Billie oh how I miss Billie. She hates my guts right now. I zoned out for a little bit thinking about what'd I'd say in return. Come to see that nothing came out but my years of boxing classes and baseball came in handy when my fist decided to swing at his face.

"The hell was that for!" he said holding onto his face

"You ruined my life!" I said pushing him he's still too strong to move

"You knew the chick for what 9 months? I didn't ruin anything get out!" He yelled

"I'll fucking kill you if i have to!" I yelled running out to the car

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I don't want to make billie upset but she has to talk to me.

me: talk to me please ?
me: i didn't do anything i swear
me: please, i love you
me: even if you hate me
me: i love you i love you i love you
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Im laying on the floor of my room music playing in the background phone in my hand ready for whenever billie wants to talk. I love her. Cliche to be listening to heartbreak songs especially "Missing my baby"

"Who broke your heart" Lexie said coming into the room

"Billie and I are over" I sighed

looking up at the picture that lexie took of billie and I kissing that I put on the ceiling. I like the picture it's genuine we didn't know she was taking the photo so it was just us hanging out like normal laughing while kissing. Like we do- did like we did.

"Huh? Why you guys are like in love with each other"  lexie said laying down on the floor next to me

"Well she thinks i cheated on her because Scott sent her pictures of him and I kissing"

"Why the hell were you kissing Scott in the first place"

"He kissed me I tried to get off him but he's twice my size"

"I don't want to blame it on you but that seems like it's your fault" She said

"What?? Why??" I asked in shock

"You knew he's  like the main star there yet you still took the job, kind of obvious this would've happened no? I call it self sabotage. Let's assume you love both of them but you can't have both"

Let's get one thing clear I don't love Scott. I want to make that as clear as possible he can go fuck himself.

"That's the dumbest thing i've ever heard, you know i wouldn't do that what kind of friend are you?"

"Quinn, YOU took the job knowing he gets all the attention there what is that supposed to look like? And at this point I'm not your friend more like a babysitter i'm the same age as your big brother for fucks sake" she said getting up

"You're going to blame this all on me?" I shouted following her

"Yes, it was a subconscious thought but you did it intentionally" she grabbed her jacket and was starting to go out the door

"What do you know?"

"You forget I majored in psychology"

"Where are you going!" I shouted

"To try and fix what you broke"

"I didn't do shit!"