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ONE WEEK LATER
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my beloved<3:  DENZEL BROK HIS PEG CAN YOU BE RHE OPEING ACT

me: FOR THE NEXT THREE SHOWS!??

my beloved<3: FOR THE LAST THREE SHOWS YES

me: but i've NEVER performed in front of a crowd YOU EXPECT ME TO OPEN A WHOLE ARENA

my beloved<3: FOR ME PLEASE :(

me: YOU ARE LUCKY I LOVE YOU SO BADLY

my beloved<3: OH YES I AM

It's a week later Billie is finally coming home! Lexie is still in DC so i've been alone for so long. I haven't heard anything from Scott luckily. i'd rather be caught dead then seen in public with that douche. I look back at our relationship and it was BAD i don't know why i liked him. Last week I ordered some new shoes that billie really wanted and i'm gonna give them to her tomorrow I know she could've just asked and they'd be on her feet within the hour but i wanted to do something nice plus i got a custom stitching of her name on the sides and a blohsh on the sole, something a little more personal. I got a notification that they were delivered which is weird cause they usually knock and give them upfront so i opened the door and it was t on the doorstep.

"Looking for something?"

A familiar voice said from the drive way I look up to see billie holding the box smiling. My jaw drops because she said she wasn't coming until later in the day tomorrow. I run from the door and jumó in her arms causing her to drop the shoes.

"You're home early!" I said excitedly

"I know I wanted to surprise you, facetime isn't enough to keep me from missing you" She said hugging me tighter

"Oh god I missed you so much" I sighed

I grabbed the box and we went inside she sat on the couch and I gave her one of the vegan cupcakes I managed to make, you know vegan food isn't that bad I just wasn't making it right. I opened the box in the kitchen hoping the shoes weren't damaged and damn they looked fly. I skipped into the living room and she looked at me with a smile.

"what are you up to?" she smirked

"i got you a present" i said opening the box and showing her

"dude these are the ones i wanted! you didn't have to"

"but i wanted too" i giggled

"come here my love" i got on the couch with her and we cuddled for a couple minutes

"i got a surprise for you too" she said pulling out her hair from her beanie

she pulled out her green and black hair which were in curls

"this isn't it just a part of it" she said

"it looks good"

"come here"

we went upstairs to my room and she went into the bathroom with her bag and told me to wait for about 15 minutes. I don't like waiting but for her i guess. i'm a little impatient because i haven't seen her in three months but- woah

"do you like it? i do it's very hot" she said

woah billie walked out wearing a corset which matched her green hair perfectly and i've just never seen anything like it. she walked towards me rubbing her thumb on my lips. having me looking up at her made me feel like a bottom.

"well?" she asked again now sitting on my lap

"i- you look gorgeous"

"yeah i thought so"

she cupped her hands around my cheeks and kissed my lips softly my hands were resting on her hips ready for more.

"it's too bad i'm taking this away now" she sighed walking back to the bathroom

"you are such a tease!" i said chasing after her

"oh please" she laughed

i grabbed her hand and pulled her in for one more kiss making sure it was a long one. she pulled apart and went in the bathroom leaning against the door frame she whispered "i love you" i made sure to whisper it back. "i love you more". Anyone who has to call her their ex messed up big time that girl loves me!!!!!!!!! and i love herrrrr and oh my god if me from last year knew what i was thinking right now she would've beat my ass. I would've won in that fight though i'm so much better than i was. i've been thinking of one of my therapy sessions where i was so out of touch with myself. unmotivated to do what i loved.

"so what if everyone around me dies, love isn't real i could very easily live my life without a partner. i'm never and I never want to experience the feeling of being complete just because a certain person is in my life. Take notes if i EVER say i'm in love with someone take me straight to the psych ward. I'd rather be caught dead than saying that shit"

Compared to now I've found someone I really care about and someone who Really cares about me. Now YOU take notes. If I ever mess this up take me straight to prison, she makes me happy. She makes me, me y'know? I hope that I never mess this up, I hope that nobody tries to mess this up for me. That'd have to be an evil evil person. I'm just a girl in love with another girl who won't shut up about turning 18 in two months and we are happy.