𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄 𝐈𝐍 ❥ 西村リキ

«𝐧𝐞𝐮𝐟»

«𝕸𝖞 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊𝖘 𝖞𝖔𝖚»

「AHNJONG」

"jay, don't do that again." i sighed, crossing my arms. "why? who are you to boss me anyway?" jay scoffed. "you're younger than me so it's better if you stop talking impolitely with me." he warned.

"i'm not trying to boss you jay! i just don't want more violence to occur in this household. i get it might be normal but you are aware that i'm a human, right?"

"if you don't wanna see or hear more of it, then leave?" he frustratedly started cutting the food and glared at me. "you can go back to your old household for all i care. just stop bothering me and the owners of the castle. got it?"

i was at loss for words. "we only brought you in here cause we pity you ahnjong. don't think that we like you or something." jay said and put the knife down. tears built up in my eyes. without another word, i left him stunned in the kitchen be.

i ran into my room, slamming the door shut and locking it. i didn't care a single bit if i startled one of the guys, or even awoke them from their sleep.

because, he was right. no one likes me. everyone only does a favor because they pity me.

i hid under my bedsheets and cried silently. i hoped for my life to come to an end soon. i want to end all of the pain i endured.

someone tried opening my door but thankfully, it was locked.

「JAKE」

i was about to head to sleep when i heard a door being slammed shut. out of curiosity, i left my room and checked to see if there were any hints.

i kenw that jay and ahnjong were together in the kitchen, so i didn't think much of it and didn't bother going into the kitchen. i peeked inside of every room but saw everyone doing their own businesses. besides jay.

ahnjongs door was locked too. that made me even more curious.

i went downstairs into the kitchen, finding jay pinching his own nose bridge. probably in frustration.

"what's wrong?" i asked. "fucking leave." jay snarled. "i just wanna know.." "i told you to fucking leave jake!" he faced me and i saw as his eyes glowed wine red.

"i want to know what's wrong. please?" i frowned. "i feel like i used my ass to think. why the fuck did i have to scold her? she might be thinking that we fucking hate her now!" he yelled and stabbed the cutting board with the knife harshly.

the sudden movement caused me to flinch. i've decided to let him calm down and went off.

i knocked on ahnjongs door. no answer. i knocked again. still nothing.

"ahnjong.." i spoke. "please... let me in? i swear i'm not gonna do anything bad.." i heard footsteps approach the door. behind the door, there stood ahnjong. her eyes were red.

"do you hate me?" she asks, completely out of the blue. "no?" i answered. "why would i?" she looked down. "you only pity me, don't you?" ahnjong fell to the floor and broke down.

i quickly crouched down and hugged her tightly. "no! of course not! whatever escaped jays mouth, just know he didn't mean it. he was just frustrated. don't be sad.. please." i tried explaining, letting her bury her neck into my chest and sob.

"let your tears out. until you feel better again, i'll stay." i whispered.

i felt someones presence and looked around. niki walked off. it seemed like he was the one watching us

his door slammed shut. that's the second time a door has been slammed, unfortunately.

「NIKI」

i was gonna go and check out the commotion after completely ignoring the way the door had slammed. first i went over to jay in the kitchen.

just by the looks of it, he already seemed frustrated. i didn't want him to blow again, so i let it be. i took off into the bathroom and did my business there before moving on back into my room.

after exiting, i wanted to go back into my room. but i heard faint voices come from the room beside mine. which was ahnjongs room.

"do you hate me?"

"no? why would i?"

"you only pity me, don't you?"

thud.

"no of course not! whatever escaped jays mouth, just know he didn't mean it. he was just frustrated. don't be sad..please."

she sounded like she was crying. but i wanted to be the one comforting her. not jake. i wanted to be by her side. why did he have to take my spotlight?

i walked closer to them and listened to what jake had to say next.

"let your tears out. until you feel better again, i'll stay."

that's where i lost my temper. i went into my room before jake could lay an eye on me and slammed the door shut.

why was i so mad that i wasn't comforting her? but why would jake be the one telling her it's gonna be okay?

i was mad. mainly at jake. usually, i wouldn't get mad at him. we are on good terms. but now? i was more than mad. i was infuriated. hearing that jay made her sad, that was already upsetting.

but when i heard that jake was the one talking to her added fuel to the fire. i jumped onto the bed and buried my face into the pillow.

i screamed as loud as i could. thank god it was muffled.

i want to know why i was mad. i don't know why i was. i wanted to be ahnjongs comfort boy. the one she could lean her shoulder on. the one she could tell her problems to.

but jake showed up first.

i found myself stupid for not helping her in the first place. if i went up to her first, i wouldn't have lost my temper right now. i should probably just calm down and take a breather.

yeah... i think that's what i need.

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