Paper Hearts | Begin

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Jungkook

Since it was a long way, it took me an hour before arriving at the destination. The restaurant was labeled closed but the lights were still on, just like before when we go out on night dates.

The restaurant owner would put a closed label but leave the lights on for us to spend quality time together without fearing that other people would saw us. The closed sign is used to be placed an hour before we arrive that guarantees no other customer would get in anymore.

I parked the car near the entrance and made sure that it would block me out when getting off so no one would see me. I entered the restaurant quietly and as expected doors were not locked.

I quickly closed the door behind me and pulled down the blinds, then I looked around to find where she is. I saw her in the same corner where we used to sit waiting anxiously while holding a cup of warm milk in her hands.

I approached her direction but she seems like she was in dazed and have not noticed my arrival. Not until when I took the seat in front of her where I used to sit before and it feels suddenly too nostalgic.

The inner design of the restaurant did not change that much except for new paints being used. But it was still like from before which brings back a lot of memories, but I shook of the thought immediately.

"You're here, I thought that you will not go here and I was nervous." she said as soon as she snap out of her thought. "Yes, I figured out that it is important that we two talk." I responded to her in the most formal manner.

She twitched upon noticing that I was using the formal tone instead of the casual one. "So, I've been back in the country for a while now but I wasn't given the chance to see you personally since I was busy sorting things out and you were busy with your schedules." she started.

"I know that it has been almost three years but my feelings for you never changed. I had never loved anyone while overseas and keep thinking about you all the time. Watching you grow to be a man you ought to be." she added as she held my right hand which was placed on top of the table.

I flinched because of the sudden action and I tried to get my hand back then placed it in my lap instead. "Your label deprived me of dating you before because you were under age that time but you can date now since you are already an adult. We can date in secret again and no one will find out."

"They tried to separate us before and purposely fired me to be kicked out to a foreign country. I swear, I did not want to leave without saying goodbye but they pushed me to. Which I could see the reason why.

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You are a newly debuted idol that time, a scandal is very crucial especially that you were the most popular one in your group. I left thinking that it is for your own good. But it different now, we can get back together..." and there she finally said the purpose why she wanted to talk to me all this time.

When she showed up in front of me all of the sudden, honestly I got confused over my feelings. I thought for a while that maybe I didn't completely moved on yet. But there was a faint voice inside me telling me that it was not the real reason.

Maybe it was the nostalgic feeling that was evoked after seeing something you haven't seen for a while and triggered memories from the past that made me feel that way. While on the way here I tried sorting all my thoughts clearly.

I met a girl whom I promised a life time with, I learned what is really the meaning of love and become matured enough to understand it. I am no longer the childish, clingy, stubborn, hard headed and young Jungkook from before.

I became a man, a man enough to understand that in a relationship is not always good times. Jae In pampered me before, she told me to always follow her since it would be for my own good.

She never argued with me as she gave me the thinking that she was always right and I subconsciously followed her. But Sana made me realize a lot of things, I learned that we had to understand each other.

We had to have trust in each other, since we are in the same industry, we are both busy and our time to spend with each other is very little. She argues with me when I am being unreasonable.

She said that it is what a relationship is. You talk, but when the other party is being unreasonable and start a misunderstanding you have to sort it out by talking about those issues and came up with a mutual understanding.

Sana let me grew up, make decisions by myself and never treated me like a kid. Her free spirited self and her way of thinking made me feel see the true self of a person. That's what made me love her. That's what I feel for and I do not intend to let go of that.

"I am so sorry Jae In noona but, we can't be together anymore. I came here today to help me sort things out and think clearly. And I already found the answer to my thoughts, and that is our time together has ended almost three years ago...

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Our relationship ends the moment you left, I moved on so you should too. You see, I grew already and no longer feel the same way towards you. This might sound harsh but my feelings for you before might be shallow, it was a puppy love after all." I told her honestly.

"Why? Why can't we get back together? We can still work out thing together, we loved each other before." she asked me as tears started to stream out of her face. "As you have said loved, its all in the past. Besides, I am now dating someone else. It is now clear that it is she whom I love and want to spend a life time with..."

With that I grabbed my things and get up from my seat and turned to leave. "Who's the lucky girl?" she asked me that made me stopped from my track. But I did not turn to look at her anymore.

"She is an idol like me, from a girl group but that doesn't concern you anymore. We love each other and I don't want her to think that I will betray her." I responded calmly and was ready to leave.

"Twice's Sana isn't it? You can't get back with me together but date a girl group member? You do realize the scandal it will cause both of your groups once you two are exposed to the public?" she added that made me clenched my teeth.

"We know the weigh of our actions, As I said it doesn't concert you anymore. I'll head out now, its good that you are back in the country noona and I hope you move on like I did." I said and continued to walk out of the restaurant with a clear and light heart. This time I know that I cleared the unanswered questions.