Paper Hearts | Begin

20

Jungkook

"You better rest there and stop pushing yourself more. You will might faint in the stage if you continue to be hard headed." the leader said as he pushed me to the side to rest longer than the others.

"Hyung, I am fine really... I just feel like I need to do better tomorrow. Mom and she will be there watching me, especially that..." I want to make us official this time, I wanted to continue.

I stared at the box at my hand that I have been holding into since yesterday when I bought it in a jewel shop nearby. Inside the box was a resting couple rings that caught my eye while we were shopping for accessories.

"Jungkook, you are not planning to do it in public aren't you? She's still on a dating ban while we were..." Namjoon hyung trailed and decided to cut his sentence off midway but I know exactly what is running on his head.

"No hyung... I wanted our relationship to be official but will remain private to us. You guys all knew the little crush I had on her since I first saw her..." I said trying to clear things up on hyung's mind.

Everyone from the group knew the sleepless nights I had stalking her on SNS and YouTube. They basically know how smitten I am when it comes to her. But the situation we are in makes everything worse.

I can only keep the affection I had to myself and in private because I am a public figure and she is as well. It would be wrong for us to display such emotions in the eyes of our fans whom we owe our success.

"You're a grown up man JK, you already hold the weighs of your decision and we can only support you. But I advice you to keep everything on low profile okay? And as much as possible don't let Pd know." he advised sincerely.

Our leader sure knows how I feel and what I am going through since he had went to it. Dating Jeongyeon noona despite her dating ban and even though we haven't even hit big that time yet.

Keeping everything on low profile and away from our Pd, he had been through a lot for sure. They have to keep their secret glances away from public and even away from their members at first.

I knew that Twice members still haven't get a hold of this information because of Tzuyu being clueless about her older sister dating. Especially that noona had always keeps her secret to herself.

Hyung and noona were high school sweet hearts, if it weren't for noona hyung might have continued to rebel against his parents and never finished his high school at all. But noona had influenced him to do so.

We had heard their roller coaster ride story from them personally so we can really tell that they love each other from the very start. Jimin hyung agreed to act like there is a beef between him and noona to divert the fans attention elsewhere.

"Of course hyung, I know..." I said as he sighed before tapping my back like a reliable older brother to me, which he really is. "Just don't push yourself too much and rest well, everyone can tell you are not fine by your hoarse voice."

Hyung said before finally leaving me to go to the others while V hyung came to sit beside me while drying his sweat from practicing his solo stage of Stigma. "Kookie, I will be drifting off to sleep for a while, wake me up when we need to rehearse okay?" he asked while plopping himself on the chair.

"Okay hyung..." I simply responded that made him sigh as he close his eyes and drift to sleep. I know that everyone else is tired but V hyung's tiredness is on a different level because he is tired mentally and emotionally.

Recently his grandmother who took care of him since he was a child had passed away and he could do nothing and can't go back to Daegu since we are on tour. He is currently very hurt so the members tried to understand him more.

He was really very depressed to the point that we had to seek help for his well being, he is recovering but the process is so gradual. I checked my phone while taking enough time to rest just as what they instructed to.

Twice is on a very busy schedule too so we rarely talk, or even meet. I was already lucky that they had to film a MV overseas and we can meet for a day or two which is really a very rare chance.

I made sure that she will be able to watch me in a concert even for once before I make us official. I was lost in thoughts imagining our future together when I suddenly heard hyung beside me sobbed a little.

When I turned to his side I saw a drop of tear dropping from his eyes even with his eyes tightly closed. I shook him a little so that he would wake up since the tears from his eye were continuously running down.

"Hyung wake up, you are crying hyung." I lightly said as his eyes fluttered and he immediately. I guessed he knew about his tears continuously flowing so he instantly wiped it away and sat straight in his seat.

"I am sorry, I can't help it..." he said as we both stared at the hyung rapper line who was currently practicing on the main stage. "Hyung I know that you are sad right now and all we could do is to comfort you..."

"I know that it is not enough, but we hope we can cheer you up in every possible way we can." I said as I picked up something from my pocket but on the process the box slipped off my pocket too.

"Oh I see, you are finally gaining the courage to be with her..." he said as he stared at the box. "Yeah, she is worth the risks anyway, that's not it... Where did I place it again?" I asked myself as I place back the box in my pocket.

Then I remembered that it was in my inner coat's pocket so I quickly got it. "Here's the little devil... This is for you hyung, we hope that you could smile genuinely again for us." I said as I gave him the envelope that we the members had worked hard for.

"But please open the letters when we are not around. We give you the whole afternoon after the rehearsal. I hope you will enjoy." I said as I saw him opening the envelope that I gave him.

The members gave the envelope to me so I could hand it over V hyung, me and Jimin hyung was the chosen candidates to do the job but the others think that I better do it as they think that I am much capable to do it.

Indeed we were all worried about him but we all understand personal space so we decided to write him letters of comfort and give him half a day to enjoy himself at an amusement park since we know he could be freely himself there.

"Thanks, I owe you one..." he said sincerely while raising the envelope. I just nodded my head before going ahead to do my rehearsal joining the others and letting him stay there alone to rest.

A/N:

I really miss writing this story but I am caught up with online class, everyday is just filled with activities and stuffs here and there.  Its really stressing me out, so I dropped here a bit while I am uploading a google drive file for one of my assignments. I will get back once my schedule is free again!