I Can Save You (Kellic)

Promises

(Ok, so, obviously I need to clear somethings up. Vic was a very cruel freshmen. Kellin had his first encounter with him when he was a softmore. I messed that all up, and I am incredibly sorry for that confusion.)

Chapter Twenty-

Vic's POV

I hung my head, not saying anything to Kellin or Mike. What do I say, more specifically to Mike? Who looked upset as it was. I couldn't just tell him everything that had gone through my head lately, about what had really happened last night, it had never been that bad since the first time I had ever done this to myself. That was a mess, but I really did not want to think about that right now. I wanted to apologize to Mike, but I didn't how to do that exactly. How do apologize to your younger brother for this? You just couldn't, it wasn't possible.

So instead of saying anything to him, I just stood there, starring at my feet, silent. I could hear the other twos light breathing, so I knew they were both still here, but I just couldn't bring myself to say anything relevant to what was going that is. "We're going to be late for school.." I mumbled, not looking up from the ground and walking to where I hoped was the door to my room, but Mike's tall figure stopped me from leaving.

"No. We are talking about this now. Forget school. Mom and Dad already left for work, so we have all day." Mike said determinedly. I sighed, looking up from the floor so I could look at him. He had his arms crossed over his chest and a determined look on his face. I casted a glance at Kellin, who was standing to the side of Mike, just watching the scene before him with sorrowful eyes. Great, my own boyfriend felt bad for me. Great.

"Mike, I don't want to talk about this." I said stubbornly, looking back down at the ground. I heard both Kellin and Mike sigh, and then I felt someones hand on my shoulder, making my head shoot up to meet their eyes. It was Kellin. He was giving me a pleading look, one that was begging me to just talk about what was going on in my head, and explain it to Mike, who needed an explanation. I wanted to say no, to shake my head and quickly run out of this room, this house, but I couldn't. As much as I hated it, I knew Kellin was right. Mike deserved an explanation at the very least.

So, with a sigh, I gave in, walking over to my bed so I could sit down, and keeping my eyes down. "It started in freshmen year. I was so sick of having to constantly watch over you when you were doing drugs or smoking, making sure you didn't overdose or some shit. And, with what was going on with mom and dad, their obvious sudden dislike towards one another, dad's pressuring, and what I was going through with my doubt of my sexuality. It was all just so much to take in.."

_Flashback, 4 years ago_

I was exhausted. That was the only way I could describe myself. I was tired of all that was going on around me. I was tired of that fact that my younger brother was doing drugs when he was only in middle school, and that my dad couldn't seem to be proud of me no matter what I did, not to mention the fact that I had no idea what my sexuality was. I was just so tired of all of this. I needed a break, a moment where I could just be numb and not feel a thing.

While I was sitting in my room, I considered do some type of drug, any drug. But that idea was gone as soon as it came up. I couldn't do drugs, it just wasn't me. I didn't want to drugs. Then my mind turned to a different suggestion, that I had thought about before. Cutting.

I had thought about it so many times before, about just doing it to see if it would help me. Hell, I had even gotten a blade from an old pencil sharpener. But I didn't think then I was ready, I was still holding on to the hope that maybe, just maybe, things would start to look up for me. But I realized something, sitting in my room, things weren't going to get better. They only seemed to be getting worse.

So, thinking about that, I walked over to my desk, where the blade was waiting inside a drawer. Slowly I pulled it out, starring at the glistening piece of metal. Just a few minutes, that's all I wanted. I just wanted to be numb for a few minutes, I thought to myself, pulling up my sleeve. I took a deep breath, before I pressed the cold metal to my skin, for the first, but certainly not the last time in my life.

_End Flashback_

I shuttered at the memory, before looking at Mike, who was waiting for me to go on, obvious pain in his eyes. "And after that, I thought that it was the only way I could be numb, or my version of happy. But then I met Kellin." I told him, sending a smile to Kellin, who was starring at me with watery eyes. He gave me a watery smile.

I turned my attention back to my little brother, who was still starring at me with a pained expression. "Oh, Vic, I never knew you were that hurt, I had no idea." He said, walking over to my bed, and sitting down next to me, before pulling me into a tight hug, that lasted a long while. No one in the room said anything, the only sound was that of silence.

I let Mike cry on my shoulder, which wasn't something that really ever happened. You never see Mike cry, ever, but when it came to family, well I guess that was his one and only weak spot.

_Kellin's POV_

I watched the terribly touching scene between the two brothers with tears in my eyes. I was both happy for the two brothers, who seemed like they both really needed that hug. I was also sad, sad because I never noticed just how lost Vic had been all those years. Sure, as I said before, I always noticed something different about Vic, something he kept hidden from the world. But never in my wildest dreams, would I have imagined it be this. That he was slowly dying inside.

I let out a quiet sigh, emotions building up inside me. I could only imagine how hard this was for the two brothers, if it was this hard for me. It was just difficult to think that these two, who seemed so happy on the outside, could hold this much sadness.

But, as I looked at these two brothers, who were holding onto each so tightly, as if they let go, they would never see one another again, that I would make sure by the end of Senior year, both of them were happy, and clean. Both of them, no matter what it took, I was going to keep this promise.

(I am also terribly sorry for two other reasons, one, for the sadness of this chapter, but it ended on a good note! And two, for the pause in updates, I just had a hard time writing this chapter for no good reason, and I am just sorry. I love you all for sticking with me tho! Comment, vote, like, favorite, love, and worry about the future of Kellic with me!)