Magical [KRIS]

14. { i'm sorry, Tao }

"Hyung, I can only say one thing. Let go of the past, because it doesn't matter now. Kung pinipilit mo lang ang sarili mo na mamuhay sa nakaraan, you can't move forward and accept." Payo ni Luhan. That was when I got real serious.

"Hindi madaling tanggapin ang nakaraan, Lu. Hindi madali." I respond, crossing my arms.

"Alam ko, hyung. Kaya nga hindi mo kailangan mag-madali. Take it slowly, the only thing that matters is that you've started. Bakit, ang mga mataba ba, kung tumakbo in an hour pumayat na? I know it's not easy, so take it slowly. Sooner or later, you'd only make the past your memories. And you'll still be making more." Sabi niya, at inabot ang balikat ko. He smiled at me with such encourage engraved.

"Maganda ang magdala ng memories, but you'll have to let some go to hold new ones. Pero di ibig sabihin dun, na kakalimutan mo nang nagkaroon ka pala ng ganoon." He finishes, and gave me a manly hug. Napangiti nalang ako. Luhan really understands.

"Mga hyuuuuuuuung!" Aba, kaya pala may palaging maingay malapit sa pintuan, eh nasa labas pala ang mga gago.

"Good thing we have a spare key. Mukhang seryoso ang pinag-usapan niyo ah? Anong meron?" Tanong ni Suho hyung. I just smiled and bro-fisted him.

"Nothing, Lu hyung just enlighted me with some things." I reply, shaking my head and wearing a grin. Nakakatulong din palang makipag-usap sa mga taong nakaka-intindi sa'yo, they know exactly what to say.

"Lu, I think I had hurt the guy." Sabi ko ng nanuod na kami mg movie. Luhan beside me moved his head palapit sa bibig ko, meaning nakikinig siya.

"Then go, at mag-sorry ka. He's your closest, kaya masasaktan talaga siya ng husto dahil galing sa gege niya ang mga salitang he least expected." Sabi niya, habang bumubulong sa'kin. I smile, knowing that he said the rightest things I need to hear.

"Suho hyung, puntahan ko lang si Tao, okay? Be right back." Paalam ko kay Suho hyung at tumayo. Pagtayo ko, halos napasigaw silang lahat.

"SHIT NAMAN KRIS KUNG TATAYO KA NAMAN LANG WAG SA GITNA." Jongdae

"CLIMAX NA NG MIRACLES IN CELL #7 JAN KA PA TUMAYO ABA." Minseok.

"ALAM MO NAMANG KAPRE KA KAYA PLES LANG, LIKOD MO NA NAE-ENJOY NAMIN NI BAEK DITO" Chanyeol.

Aba mga gago toh ah hahahaha. I immediately went out of the lounge room at naglakad papunta sa kwarto ni Tao. Pinakinggan ko muna kung may boses ba ni Chaehyun, and fortunately, none.

I knocked on his open door for three times, bago ko nakuha ang atensyon niya.

"What?" He asks coldly. Hinila niya ang kumot pataas hanggang sa ulo niya. Nagtatampo talaga.

"Tao." I say, formulating what to say habang lumapit ako sa kanya habang sinasara ang pinto ng kwarto niya.

"Tao." I call him again, ini-isnob pa'rin ako eh. And I know, that whatever angle I may look into, I deserve this treatment.

"Ano? Sasabihan mo nanaman ako ng masasakit na salita? Kung gagawin mo lang yun, lumabas ka na Gege. Bago pa mawala lahat ng respeto ko sa'yo." sabi niya under the covers, and it really sent shivers down my spine. Grabe pala talaga ang naging epekto ng sinabi ko sa kanya, he even thought about forgetting that I am his closest brother here.

Pero then again, I deserve it.

"No, and I'm not gonna say those hateful things to you again." I start, sitting beside him, at hinawakan ang mga kumot niya. "I know masamang-masama ang sinabi ko, Tao. Alam ko. That's why I'm sitting here beside you, and saying sorry from the deepest part of my heart. Sorry dahil I told you those na parang hindi tayo naging napaka-malapit na kaibigan," i pause, dahil maybe hiningal ako kakasalita, I am never a person who usually dillydallies, kaya nanibago ako for speaking paragraphs or what. But this isn't the time para maging cold when I know I've been terrible. "I'm sorry because I snapped at you using those words. And I'm sorry for talking a lot more today." I finish, awkwardness at the tip of my last word.

Napansin kong nag-move ang kumot, pero hindi niya it hinila. He still layed there, siguro nag-iisip kung papatawarin ako.

I hope so.

And unbelievably, out of somewhere, I faintly hear him say, "Talaga?"

I smile, knowing that he considered what I told him. "Talaga." I answer.

"No joke?" He asks again, and I laugh softly.

"No joke."

"Gege?"

"Yes Tao?"

"Pasalamat ka malakas ka sa'kin gago ka."

"Hey, your words! Alalahanin mong gege mo'ko!" I say, at natatawa at the same time.

"Okay fine, gege! Oh yan, saya ka na gege?" Tawa niya at natawa nalang ako. Brothers, perhaps.

"Teka nga gege, one question,one answer," I look at him sa sinabi niya and slowly clenched my jaw. I know him too well, tatanungin niya kung bakit ako nagalit.

"Okay." I say, at inabot ang tubig mula sa nightstand niya and drank some.

"Nagselos ka ba sa'min ni noona?" I almost spat all the water I drank on his face. But how much I'll deny, he knows me too well.

"What do you think?" Tanong ko. I tried to keep my face blank.

"Isang tanong isang sagot nga diba?"

Napa-isip ako sa totoo. If i lie, he'll know. If i say the truth, i don't know.

"Yes." I finally say, erasing doubts from my head.

Silence followed. I look away at uminom ulit sa tubig ko.

*bloooooogsh* Tao and I hear from outside the door. And surprisingly?

We see a Chaehyun on her front on the floor, squinting hard and cursing ubder her breath.