Night Changes

CHAPTER 23

I held Jassi's hand because he is scared of take offs. He looked so childlike, so innocent.

  I explained DARK to him. He listened with so much excitement, his eyes glowed up with curiosity.

  We went on a run. He forbade me to eat ice cream and I held his arm. His cheeks were as red as tomatoes.

  He hugged me and I cried in his arms when I told him about my past.

  He checked on me the next day.

  We kissed.

  I loved the fact that we kissed.

  He started to like me.

  Though unintentionally, I broke his heart.

  He was hurt, so bad.

I laid on the floor of my bedroom and kept wondering. These three days, all I did was lock myself and cry. I switched my phone off. I didn't bath and I barely ate. I kept calling Jassi but his phone was switched off. Even when he turned it on for some time, he never received mine. Shreyas and Ritz- both came to check on me but I didn't let them in. All I wanted was to kick this world away and bring Jasprit back. I felt so emotionally drained, after all this crying, I finally feel completely numb.

  How could I be so blind? How couldn't I notice and let him know? That I liked him a lot more than he thought. I always felt a pull for him that I felt for nobody else. I never admired anybody as much as I did to him.

And now he's hurt. He's broken.

  So am I.

  Jassi opened my eyes.

  Love isn't about getting in a relationship and hoping that it would work out. You meet them suddenly, and as time progresses, you know them. You admire their good, and their bad. You see through them and all you see is infinte possibilities.

For me, those possibilities are now crushed.

Because Jassi, is gone.

He feels insecure that I'll never fall for him. Which is ridiculous, if you ask me. I've been respecting and liking him since day one. And now that he's gone, I feel shattered. As if the light of my life is gone. I feel empty, broken. The very thought that he probably misunderstands me is enough to make me go nuts. I can't believe a guy this good and precious to me is gone. Because I couldn't make him realise how special he was.

  More than Shreyas.

  Shreyas. How could I continue my relationship with Shreyas now that I know Jassi is the one? Jassi might not be mine, but if I just let this thing go on, it would be pure injustice and cheating on Shreyas.

No, I should let him know.

I never felt that attraction for him that I felt for Jasprit. I never admired him that much.

I picked up my phone and switched it on.

105 missed call from Ritz.
68 from Shreyas.
Innumerable messages from both.

I sighed.

I went to search for Shreyas's number when I saw Rohit's messages.

A good number of them were if I was alright and then he sent:

"Jasprit told me everything. He's broken and has disconnected himself. He has gone to his mom. And then Ritika told me about you. As far as I can understand, it's because of Jassi. I just wanted to know what you actually feel about him so that I could do something for you guys. Jasprit's my really good friend, and I can't see him like this. So please call me if you get this, "

I thought for a while. Maybe Rohit could actually knock some sense into him.

  I called him.

"Hey, Alayna! You finally called! Ritika is worried sick for you! You are even refusing to open the door,"

"Hey, Rohit. I'm sorry to make you all so tensed,"

"God- your voice is enough to convey your state. You clearly aren't all right,"

I only sighed.

"Is this because..of what happened between you and Jassi?"

"...yes, it is. Look, Rohit, I- I really like him and I have feelings for him. He is special and precious to me. And I want to let him know that. I want to tell him how badly I miss him and I'm more than ready for us.But he isn't picking my phone,"

"Thank God, I feel relieved. It's two sided then. Don't worry, Alayna. I'll convince that idiot to talk to you. Though he doesn't receive my calls much but I guess I can reach him.. That day, when he called me, he was crying. That he told you the truth and all as I said but-"

"Wait- you knew?"

"Yes. Since the beginning. I knew he started to like you when he talked with so much grace and love. And then as I expected, I saw his love grow. I kept pushing him to admit it and one day, he did. I adviced him to talk to you but I realised he was insecure that you don't like him like he does. I pushed him to tell you and he did, but that didn't age well,"

I shut my eyes. I so wanted to meet him.

"When he called me that day, he was crying so hard. He said he told you everything but he has ended it and he doesn't want to have anything with you. But I know it's wrong, I tried to explain him but he was so stubborn, he won't budge,"

"Rohit, please help me. I really want to talk to him. He's wrong. I want to be with him, I want us to have a chance,"

"I will, I promise. You've helped me a lot,  it's my turn now. And yeah- thanks for the evidence, "

"Jasprit told you?"

"He did. He told me to ask you for the pictures but I don't need them. I don't want to spoil any of you in Ritika's eyes,"

"So what are you gonna do?"

"Talk to her. Straight,"

"That's the best thing to do. Now that you have the evidence it's actually true,"

"Yeah,"

"Rohit? Don't tell Ritz I talked to you. I don't have any reason to tell her at the moment,"

"Sure, as you say,"

"And keep me updated on what happens. Best of luck,"

He sighed.

Right now, I wish you were here with me,
'Cause right now everything is new to me...

Don't regret later, fellas. Do it when it's time.

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