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Anonymous Letter

There is this one guy who is in my class, who really caught my attention. He's so handsome, he is so cute and he is so kind. He's different from everyone else. It's like in everything he does, he shine so bright, yet he look so simple.

And I was going to confess my feelings towards him. I want him to know, to be aware of my feelings but before I'd get to tell him anything something happened that made me change my mind.

"Senpai, I have something to..." I called but I trailed off midway because I noticed that he was talking to someone and I didn't want to disturb them. But then I noticed the girl that he was talking to, ran away with tears in her eyes and I saw that the letter that she gave to him, he declined it.
Seeing that unfold before my eyes. I made up my mind not to do the same because he might reject me the same way he did to her.

Unable to tell him what I feel, I went home, disappointed. How I wish I have the courage to do like what she did. She wasn't afraid to confess her feelings to her crush. I tried to get some sleep but I couldn't because something is bothering me, suddenly something came into my head.

Morning came, I only got 3 hours of sleep because of what happened the previous day. I know I said that I changed my mind about giving him my letter, but my brain came up with a brilliant idea. I must say, I'm a genius. So I made up my mind to still give him the letter but I'll keep my identity anonymous. So I had to rewrite my letter and change my hand writing so that he would be able to trace that it was I who wrote the letter. And I'm going to slide it into his locker, backpack or desk, when no one is around.

I arrived just in time before the bell rang, and because I was almost late to school, I was not able to sneakly put my letter into his locker, bag nor desk. I'm so disappointed. But I'm just going to do it later. Maybe during lunch, that's when I will commence my genius plan.

When I entered the classroom, my eyes immediately started to look to where he is seated. This happens to me EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I think it became a habit of mine to search for his face the moment I enter the classroom. Seeing his face, brings a smile to my face. God, he look so handsome today. Can someone slap me? Because I feel like I'm in heaven just by looking at his face. I thank God for this wonderful blessing everyday and for the opportunity to see him everyday. That's the reason why I have a perfect attendance because I don't want to miss seeing him. Gosh, I sound like crazy right now. Crazy in love, I mean.

I was so looking forward to lunch time but guess what happened during lunch? The handsome bastard didn't eat in the cafeteria. Instead he ate in our classroom so there is no way that I can put my letter into his bag or desk. I couldn't put it in his locker either. I don't want anybody to see me. Afterall he's pretty famous around the campus. So I ate my lunch ready bummed and wasn't in the mood to eat my food.

"Hey, Kakitakari." I heard him called my name. Hearing him calling my name sounds like music to my ears.
"Why don't you join us? You seem lonely, eating by yourself, alone." He said, inviting me to eat with him. Did I just heard everything right? Or my ears is playing a trick on me? Or am I imagining things now?
"Me?" I pointed myself to be sure that he was indeed talking to me. And what I did made him laugh. I must have look silly.
"Yes, you. Is there any girl in our class named Kakitakari other than you? You're the only one who's name is Kakitakari, right?" He said while laughing softly, I just nodded my head but didn't move because I don't know what to do nor what to say. MY CRUSH JUST ASKED ME TO EAT LUNCH WITH HIM. WITH MY CRUSH. WHAT A DREAM COME TRUE. I CAN DIE NOW FROM HAPPINESS.

I was going to move but I was nervous to do so, so I stayed in my seat instead. He gave me a confused look then he took his bento box instead and transferred next to me while his friends followed him. I was dumbfounded by what he did. It was something I didn't expected for him to do. I low-key also thought that he might just be messing with me, since we used to seat next to each other so we were pretty kind of close until our teacher rearrange our seating arrangement. I was transferred in the second column since my teacher noticed that I was the only short whose seated in the back. Thanks so much, teacher.

"You know former seatmate, it's not good to eat alone. People might think that you don't have any friends. You might get bullied for it." He sounded concerned. Well I'm not surprised though because back when we were seatmates, he was always have been like this with me, I mean no just to me but he does it to everyone else. But for some reason, most of the girl in our class, misinterpret his kindness towards me. I really don't have any friends in this class since my friends is in the other class.
"The fact that you're seating right next to me and us eating lunch together is enough for me to get bullied for it." I said to myself. Which is true though. Eversince, Harry and I have gotten closer the girls in my class, have grown to dislike me. So that is why I prefer to eat in the classroom rather than in the cafeteria. Since we are allowed to eat in the classroom as long as we don't make any mess.

"Nah, I'm fine. I'm used to it anyways." I said casually trying to ease up my nervousness.

"No, it's not okay. Just because you are used to it, it does not make it okay. Okay?" He said, getting irritated.

"I'm sorry, okay?" I said getting weirded out from his unusual behavior. I have never seen Harry react nor act this way. For I am used to see his composed, calm and cold persona, but seeing him care about me and my whereabouts makes my heart melt. He's cold because he usually says a couple of words during conversation, but when it comes to school, he's mouth wouldn't stop talking. And that's what makes him unique and different from most guys.

"I'm sorry for getting heated up. I'm just concerned for you, hope you know that. I just don't like to see you all alone after all you're one of my friends." He explained. He looked really sincere and serious. He considered me as one of his friends? But I want more from him.

"Thank you, Harry. For showing me that you care." I smiled.

Lunch went by smoothly and the class resumed. As usual, Harry is participating actively. He's such a nerd. That's one of the things that I like about him. Time passed by, the day is already setting, the class is at the near end. And I was still unable to snuck my letter into his bag or desk. I'm rethinking everything if I should give my letter to him still? Or I should just give up. I'm on the verge of giving up when something miraculous happened.

"Kakitakari." I heard a very familiar voice called.

"Yes, Harry?" I replied.
He approached me and grabbed by my arm and dragged me in the corner.

"Can I ask you to meet me after school tomorrow? Nah, Can I take you home today? 'Cause there's something that I really want to tell you about." He said-asked nervously. He's confusing me. Make up your mind, Harreh!

"Um, okay. Can't you just tell me right here?" I asked confused with his behavior.

"You see, it's kinda private. I don't want other people to hear us. Please just let me take you or walk you home." I nodded my head indicating that I am okay with him taking me home. So we walked together towards the school parking lot, where his tesla is parked.

He opened the car door for me and I hopped in while he hopped right after he closed the door for me after I got inside his car. What a gentleman.

"So what do you want to talk about?" I asked right away before I get swallowed by my nerves and I might not be able to say something.

"I want to talk about us." He said.