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Like a statue but stronger 5

Harry's POV

And there I saw her, sitting on our spot looking like an angel, she is, with her head looking up a head the horizon. With a bittersweet smile on her face. I wanted to sit next to her but staring at her like this, in the distance is way better for now. And I'm afraid that if I'll approach her at this moment she might run away from me. So looking at her like this oblivious, is enough for me. I don't even deserve to stare at this angel right in front of me.

I have caused that bittersweet smile on her face, what I did to her destroyed her even more. I couldn't keep what I promised. And that promise was that I will help her find her inner peace and fix her up, but in the end I was the one who completely destroyed her.
I'm a monster. I'm the worst boyfriend that ever existed on this planet. What I did was not a good man should do to his lover. I ignored her, snapped at her and painfully, I almost hit her and then cheated on her. I don't know what possessed me to do all of this things to her but all I know is that it's all my fault, there's no one to put all the blame but myself.

I don't know whats going on her head right now, but I know her so well, that I am able to read that expression on her face. By the expression on her face, she's thinking about us, anamises our most treasured memories that happened right here in this park. From our first date that lead to a multiple date and ended up with a confession, to our first fight that pushed me to kiss her to shut her up and more memories that was too good to be true but it happened.
Out of all the beautiful places on earth, this is the most indelible place that we shared.
I won't be able to forget all of those bitterly sweet memories that Y/N and I shared.

Oblivious, my feet dragged me to her direction, where's she's been sitting for a while now. I wasn't even aware where this courage came from. My feet just bought me here, maybe it was my heart who took control without my brains knowledge.

"Hi." I mumbled, not knowing how to start a conversation with her. Just like the first time that I ever spoke to her.
I was wrecked -nervous that day as I can remember as clear as the day. I was sweating so bad.
"Ahh... " I caught her off guard, startling her in the process that made her jump up from her seat.
"Oh. My... "
"Harry?" She looked at me flabbergasted.
"Y/N." I said calmly.
"What are you doing here? You're not supposed to be here. You cheated on me. You don't deserve to sit next to me nor to be this close to me. You choose her, Harry. When you were making love with her IN OUR OWN BEDROOM. Why are you even here? You should have stayed with her." She rambles with a shuddering voice.
"Calm down, and let me explain." I coaxed.
"There's nothing left to explain, Harry. No matter what reasons you have, will not help your case. I made it clear with you before I started dating you that, the worst thing a man could ever do to me is to cheat, I already warned you from the very beginning of this relationship but you still did it anyway. I even saw it with my own two eyes. So case closed." She stated icyly, without looking at me.

I never ever seen her nor heard her treat or speak to a person like this, naturally she's polite to others even if they were walking all over her. This is a new side of her that I created, myself.

"I'm sorry, my love." I said in shame, I can't even look at her right now, it's too painful for me to be able to see that tear stained face of hers.

"You know what? Stop saying sorry cause you're not sorry, even if you are you wouldn't have brought that bimbo into our used to be house to only fuck her right in front of me." I held my head down not being able to look at her in the eyes. Because eyes is the window to our soul and I do not want to see that heart broken Y/N. I just couldn't afford it. I let her down.

We sat there in an eerie silence. For a good couple of minutes but seems like years to me, none of us has the courage to break the ice. I continued to look down at my feet not being able to look at her, but still I cannot help to throw a constant glance at her. Hearing her silent cries, is arduous for me to hear and to endure much longer but what am I suppose to say to comfort her? When I was the one who caused her to feel this way.

"Harry, did you ever love me?" Caught me guard with her straight to the point question. I, myself was not hesitant to answer her but before I can say anything, she cuts me off.

"You know what forget it. Because whether you love or loved me or not. I just wanted to tell you that I always loved you, I never stop but seeing you unhappy for being with me these past few months. Made me made up my mind that left me no choice but to let you go in order for you to be happy with someone else, without living with full of guilt in your heart. So let's end this relationship and let's break up. Malaya ka na." She finally said it.

(Disclaimer: Malaya ka na means "You are free/ now".)

We're officially over.