🇦 🇸 🇸 🇴 🇷 🇹 🇪 🇩 (ʜᴀʀʀʏ Sᴛʏʟᴇs)

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Your POV

My eyes flooded with tears, when my eyes landed on my fiance with another woman. He looked really happy with her. He was smiling ear to ear, he was staring at her lovingly, just the way he used to look at me before. His eyes were sparkling, it's been too long since I saw that look on his face. I miss seeing the smile that plastered on his face that he usually displays most of the time. He was a happy and smiling person.

A month or two after our engagement, everything has changed, he became distant from me. At first everything was just fine between us, but as the day passed by and it became a month, he became cold. The smile on his face has seem to vanished, his excitement upon seeing me was also gone. The love and affection that he always gives me disappeared, too. I felt like he doesn't love me anymore. I am nothing but like an air to him. When I tried to talk to him about our wedding, he just shrugged and walk away. When I message him, he doesn't respond and if he does responds he would only send me a like and that's it. He became someone I don't recognize and it hurts me to see that my love is turning into someone I don't even know. And right now, I finally realized that it was me who made him feel that way and act that way. I was never there for him. I was not a good fiance towards him. I neglect his needs as my partner, I never has time for him, to see him do what he loves to do and to support him. It was me who left him and made him feel that way. So I have to accept that I am not the person who can make him smile genuinely. And I am not the person whom he loves. So him cheating on me was my fault, I made him do that. I made him cheat on me, I shouldn't be the one who was hurting but him. Eversince we got engaged, I spent my time planning about our wedding to the point that I forgot about him and I never asked for his opinion about my choices for our wedding. I planned everything myself not bothering to ask him about what he wants. I guess that's why he doesn't show any interest when I told him about our wedding. I never listened to his opinion anyways. I discarded what he wanted for I was selfish enough to only think about my dream wedding, which is wrong. The wedding is not only for me but for the both of us. I wasn't even able to watch him perform to any of his concert for I was so busy planning about our wedding. I forgot the most important thing in my life which is him. I was being selfish. And I deserve the pain that I am feeling right now.

Seeing him with that girl hurts a lot. It makes my heart ache. Just seeing him happy hurts knowing that it wasn't me who made him smile. I wanted to approach them but I just couldn't bring myself to. I wanted to tell him so bad on how much I miss him and how much I love him and how sorry I am for acting like a bridezilla. I was too busy feeling anxious about our wedding, I was too busy over thinking things. I was busy feeling scared of what if one day he'll realize that I am not good for him and left? I was too busy planning and think too much that I forgot to tell him my worries and problems. It was me who became distant. It was me all along. It was me who isolated myself away from him. I was just too afraid to lose him. And now I really did lose him, for real. I lost him when I was in the middle of my own battle. I was too anxious and worried about the wedding that I forget to value him. I was too busy assuming things that didn't happen and now those fears are slowly becoming my reality. I can't help to shred a lot of tears. It was me who created everything. I'm falling, falling deeper from my own thoughts and fear. I thought that he would be able to save me but he became my downfall. I turned my back against them, accepting that this might be the end of us. I wanted to ask him if he still loves me but I just can't bring myself to.

"Y/N." I heard him called my name.
But I didn't turned my head back to look at him. I ran away from him instead. I can feel him chasing after me but I didn't stopped running. While he keep calling my name over and over but I ignored it. I'm sorry Harry but I'm letting you go. I'm falling from my own heartache.

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Hey guys I am not sure if anyone reads this book anymore for it's been too long since I updated this book. Honestly I just lost the interest of writing imagines this past few years. I am currently interested in writing poems so I that's why I didn't update this book, but slowly I am trying my best to keep this book on going since I really want to finish everything that u have written in here. So I hope you guys understand. 😇😄😅