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Bestfriend and Cousin's boyfriend 2

Trigger Warning ⚠:

Dixie's POV

Man! I am so pathetic! I literally just ruined my relationship with Harry, just now. And he hates my guts. I know I said I am not the kind of person to do something evil but what my cousin did with my relationship with my ex, involves me. And I am not just going to stand here and let that opportunity slide.
Okay, so here's what happened;
After Harry proposed, I dragged him out of the gazebo and confronted him about my cousin's unfaithfulness. And do you want know how he reacted?
He literally just flipped on me. Telling me that I am the worst friend he ever had by not supporting him and he said that after they get married, he doesn't want me to be in his life, ever again. He wants me to be gone. And he also said that I am jealous because he ended up with the person he loves, while I ended up getting a heartbroken. I was furious when he said that, how dare he? So I unintentionally slapped him. And to make things worst, Anne saw it and she gave me a disgusted look, same goes to Gemma and my family and friends. They all want me to be gone.
And that's what I am trying to be.
Yes, I am attempting to commit suicide while I am narrating this to you.
As of right now, I'm inside the bathroom with my best friend called razor.
I am so tired of all of this. I keep on looking out for him when he is to dumb to notice that I like, no, love him. Despite the fact that the person he is marrying the person that is the reason of all of this.
I know I love Harry while I have a boyfriend, but it was before I realized that the only person I really love is Harry. But sadly all of the people I valued the most hates my whole being, my mom is disappointed in me, my father can't even look at me. Just by looking at their face, all I saw that they are disgust or either disappointed. It's hard to believe me either, because out of all my cousins, Courtney is considered the nicest bitch in our family (The side of my Father) while they always label me as a bitch one but in the end I ended up as the nicest one while she's the bitchest one.
I took my razor and pointed it at my wrist with a tears stained face. I've been crying non-stop since I got here. I barely couldn't even see.
I slit my wrist slowly before attacking it forcefully. This time I didn't count not care how hard my wrist is bleeding. And before I ended my life I left a dozen of pictures of Courtney with different kinds of guys making out. I made sure to splatter it everywhere in my room and in the bathroom, With almost 30 letters hidden in the splattered pictures with a specific name of the person that I am writing for. My heart raced as my chest tightened as if I can't breathe, and as if my heart started to slow down due to the lack of blood on my system. A sound roared through me as my knees buckled, and what looked like black clouds pressed their way into my vision before everything began to blur.

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Hey co-directioners!
Did you miss me? I has been a while isn't it? Well I am back. And I am still alive and breathing. 🤓
And thank you for reading my book. I can't believe it already reached 100k, thank you so so much.

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             Ristianne