𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝟒 𝐔, dreamwastaken

eight

Dear Dream,

Damn. People can be so cruel sometimes. I don't understand fully why people feel the need to be mean, bully someone, or try to cancel them. It really makes no sense. Just because they're hurting doesn't mean they need to make someone else hurt too. It doesn't help them in any way, so why do they do it? Does it really make them feel any better than they were before? I really doubt it.

So I've noticed you've been canceled a lot lately, Clay. Most times it's based off of very old content that someone has dug up on you, which is kind of sad that they have nothing better to do with their time than to find things from someone's past. You obviously have grown and developed since the point in time that you made those jokes or tweets or whatever. They don't even acknowledge that it's been YEARS since those things occurred. I'm so sorry that people seem to be out to get you. I wish that they were raised better and didn't feel the need to bring you or anyone else down. You really don't deserve it.

I came across a quote on my Pinterest today that I thought was fitting for this letter. (Go ahead and make fun of me, I know you want to. You know my addiction to Pinterest boards and quotes is really bad lol). It said, "So many people love you. Don't focus on the people who don't." Clay, you have so many people around you who love and support you through thick and thin. Focus on them, please. I know it's hard to not focus on the haters and what they are saying, but you have to try. It'll just eat you alive if you don't focus your time and energy on the people who actually matter. And don't pretend like the hate doesn't get to you. Maybe your fans will believe you when you say that, but I know better, Clay.

Okay, I know I said that a part of me hated you in my first letter to this P.O. box, but I shouldn't have said that. Is it true? Yeah, a little bit. I mean you broke my heart and then acted like it didn't affect you. But again, I shouldn't have said that because I have to be honest. Most of me still loves you. Not only because you were my best friend, but also because you were my boyfriend of over two years. I think there will always be a part of me that loves you, no matter how much time has passed. I believe that there will also always be a part of you that loves me too. It's just how it goes.

I'm not saying this because I want you to focus on me like that quote says, but I'm just simply putting it out there for you to know that I do still love you. If things get too much, you can always reach out to me. Anything you need, I will help in any way I can. Even if you just want to talk, I'm here. My number hasn't changed and neither has my apartment. Any time you want to show up, you can. I know it wouldn't be your first choice, but at least you know it's an option.

I hope things get better, Clay, and that people kindly fuck off and leave you alone. No one deserves hate or being canceled, especially not you.

Best wishes, Lila 🦋