𝐷𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝐷𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑠 (LeAga)

𝚌𝚊𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚘 𝚚𝚞𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚒𝚌𝚒: 𝑑𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑒

ɪɴɪᴢɪᴏ ᴅᴇʟ ᴄᴀᴘɪᴛᴏʟᴏ

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I rushed myself in the hospital, not giving a damn care about my things and the big backpack that I'm carrying. It's a good thing that I left my luggage in Italy, it will be a temporary home so I needed to leave it there. And I was also lucky because Gerard was able to pick me up from the Airport. I was so exhausted with that 13-hour travel time but I neglected all the pain from my back. What matters is, I need to talk to Trixie's parents even if I feel like that I don't have a face to confront them.

Ian also sent me a message, telling me to go straightly into his clinic. I was still pissed and disappointed on what he did yesterday. He made a Do Not Resuscitate Order without my permission. I don't know how to face him, I'm mad as hell. He should've saved my patient if he explained everything to my patients' parent. I don't know what to feel—I don't want to blame it all to him though. I was just so frustrated, and there's a part of me that I want to understand him. I'll know once I got to talk to him.

"Good morning, Doktora."

"Good morning, Doc. Lea."

"Hello po, Doc. Lea."

It was from the nurses who were obviously startled seeing me without my white coat. I didn't bother to answer, I hope they understand that I'm having a hard time to sink everything in my mind. I just left for three days and I loss two patients already. Ni hindi man lang ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na makiramay at mag-luksa. Pagod na pagod na ako, wala pa naman akong napapala. I don't want any disappointments to myself but seems like the world is kicking me with its butt.

I took a deep breath before entering Doctor Ian's clinic. It was Rebecca, his secretary, who I  bumped into. Ian must be at his office—it's my first time entering his office if ever.

Damn, why am I even thinking of that?

"Good morning, Doktora!" Rebecca greeted cheerfully, "Si Doc. Ian po nasa loob, kanina pa ho niya kayo hinihintay."

"Hi" I tried my best greeting her back, "Okay. Can I leave my things in here, Reb?"

"Nako, doc! Akin na ho 'yan, itago po natin sa closet dito. Baka po mawala kung dito niyo lang po iiwanan." She offered which I accepted. My back hurts already and I badly want to sit down.

"Thank you, Reb. You're the best." I forced a smile.

"Buo na araw ko, doktora! Salamat po." She said while blushing.

I nodded before entering Ian's office.

I knocked three times before slowly opening the door. I saw him sitting on his swivel chair while his both hands are cupped on his face, he seems so stressed. Well, he has to be!
Actually, no. I might be too harsh with my thoughts. I just can't think properly because of stress especially with these kinds of dilemma. I am trying my best to be as calm as I could, I need to stay professional.

"Doctor," I called which caught his attention, making him sit down properly.

"Doc. Salonga, please sit down." He said indicating me to sit down which I did because my feet is already sore and my back is uncomfortable because I've been carrying my backpack for so long.

I roamed his room which amazed me because of its interior. Each Doctors who has a clinic where given a chance to personally design their own clinic and office. I can say that Giano really did a great job in here. Back when we were in Med School, he always tells me that one of his dreams is to have an office in the hospital. He really wanted it badly. I knew he would really pursue being a Doctor even though he was struggling. That's why I broke up with him in the first place, because he's starting to fail his exams. He was so inlove with me to the point that he forgets to focus on studying. But I am truly proud now that he has gotten his dreams, he's one of the best surgeons in the country. That's a relief—at least I can say that what I did in the past is right and worth it. At least he reached his dreams...without me.