Deja vu

Chapter 25

  this is my last chapter and I'm quite happy to finish this book and the new one so thank you all for getting here and reading my crappy book. But I did enjoy writing this and I just did this more for fun and out of bordem. Also, I always saw books on this website and got inspired to write so here this book is. I hope you enjoyed it and at least laughed at how cringe-worthy this is. I'll probably see this in a few years and wonder what the hell this is but, I hope you enjoy this final chapter. 

p.s this is also probably going to be a short chapter. Not much to write to ed this. Also, tw: there will be sadness but wild. Like every good sad story, I hope this makes your heart ache a little. (oops don't take that the wrong way.) I hope this chapter isn't that trashy but enjoy anyways

Akaashi didn't stay with Bokuto the first night he was back or the next. Leaving Bokuto sleepless some more. But the doctors and Akaashi's parents insisted. Akaashi feared the symptoms were on their way but never came. This made Akaashi feel relief.  

When Akaashi woke up this morning, it felt weird. The aura around him was weird he wondered if it was just deja vu, but it felt like something bad was on its way. He brushed it off but when he looked at his phone and checked the date. It scared him. He knew what he was feeling. This day, later today, Bokuto died in the hospital. But no, it was different then... Bokuto didn't sleep as much before. He lost weight, he had hallucinations, he couldn't speak. But he could do all those things now...but if I feel like--No! Our present life doesn't have to mirror the past one we have just recovered! he slid some clothes on, a jacket and some shoes. He muttered something to his father just before he left that he just barely got out, " I'm staying the night at the hospital, tonight. Bye."
"But-" Guni was interrupted by the sound of the door slamming behind Akaashi. Guni sighed. " That boy..." The room was engulfed in silence. 

He reached the hospital. The sensation would always feel familiar but this felt all too surreal. He walked into Bokuto's room. He looked better but not too different from when he last saw him.     "AGGAASHHII!" A small chuckle escaped Akaashi. 
"Hey, Kou. How are you feeling?" 
"Better, definitely! The doctors say that I'm handling everything really well. They say they're rooting for me to recover."
"So am I." Akaashi smiled. " I'm staying here tonight. Hopefully, you can sleep."
"YAY!" Bokuto's grin expanded. which made Akaashi give in and give an unexpectedly wide smile, well wide for Akaashi. "Hey, Keiji! look! It's snowing outside! "
"Yeah, it is..."
"Like on our first date."
Akaashi blushed and smiled." Yeah, like on our first date..."
"Can we go outside! Pleaaaseee!"
"Kou, I don't think that's a good idea..."
"Pleeaaaseee." Akaashi almost gave in. 
"How about we just go to that window...we can open the window so you can see the snow..."
"Hmm OkAy!" God, I hate this...

Akaashi felt...
Unexplainable...

Bokuto reached his hand out and felt the snow he giggled and his eyes beamed. Like, they really beamed. Akaashi just took in the sight They best view he'd ever seen. Akaashi really didn't want this to be his last day with Bokuto. He wanted to see that view at least a thousand other times. He wanted to be with him a thousand other times and wanted to spend eternity with him... no, longer than that. Akaashi refused to accept what was going to happen. or what was not going to happen...
He didn't let himself just believe it like that. But still...he wanted to leave off on fond memories...even if he didn't believe it. No. Not yet. 

"Koutarou Bokuto..."

"Keiji?"

"I just want you to know...I'll always love you. No matter what and I could never love anyone as much as the way I do for you."

"Why are you making it seem like we'll never see each other again."

"I just want you to know how much you mean to me.."

"Well, In that case... Keji, I didn't think it was possible to love someone as much as I love you.."

"Me neither..."

It eventually hit dark and nightfall was upon them. Akaashi fought the urge to sleep, but his body was fighting a hard battle against his eyelids. But eventually, he fell asleep. He woke up to the sun in his face he felt a weight on his body. It felt delicate...this feeling was hitting him again...

He looked beside him. Bokuto. still. Unmoving. "K-Koutarou. No...you're not...no..." Akaashi slowly started to sob. It only got louder. he'd prepare for this... so why did it hurt so much...? Because he was gone... he knew the answer but he didn't want to admit it. Bokuto was held by Akaashi in his arms while crying. He heard the monitor beep. He saw the line go straight. He screamed loudly unable to hold it back.  " Keiji..?" Bokuto yawned and stretched his way out of Akaashi's embrace in order to look him in the eye. " What's wrong?" Akaashi smiled so big but tears still streamed. " Is this real?"
"Well, I'd think so.." Bokuto laughed and Akaashi breathed a small sigh of relief following a small chuckle. He glanced at the heart reading machine to see Bokuto's heartbeat slowly picking up pace. Akaashi smiled wider and hugged Bokuto and Bokuto hugged him back. They broke apart and Akaashi stood up, leaning off the hospital bed. Doctors rushed to the room. " Is everything alright..?" The doctors asked fearful but professional. 
"Yes, sir. Bokuto's heartbeat stopped...I got a little scared."
"Hm. But he is alive, so that is good. We would be surprised if it had come to an end...we just looked at some results and apparently, he has recovered from FFI."
"WHAT?!" Bokuto and Akaashi said excitedly in a union. 
"Yes. Great news. I know. Well, I'll let you two talk." The doctors and nurses exited the room. 
"Kou! I...I'm so happy.." Akaashi said through joyful tears. 
"I'm happy too...Apathy-Kun."
"What...?"
"I...remember...our past life." Akaashi laughed he brought his head to rest on Bokuto's forehead. "okay, and Kou. I don't want you to ever have to find me.. I'll always be just by your side...2
"Yeah...I love you."
"I love you more."

"Impossible."

*Biggest breath* I'm kinda proud of this but I'm happy I published this. I hope you enjoyed reading this and I hope I actually thought Bokuto died but I would never do that. I would never forgive myself. smh. But, I did say previously as a warning, I wouldn't make Bokuto die. Then again, I also said I wouldn't create angst, but I still kinda did. I stalled this book and chapter, I'll admit that. But, I did also want this chapter to be reasonably long instead of short since it is the ending. anyway bye, I guess I'll see you in the next book, it will be iwaoi and it will be a book more of 'Quantity over Quality. It will take a while so don't expect it that soon. ok bye ;)

thanks for reading this book.

edit: Also, can anyone help me here- I have officially discovered I indeed do not know how to put this as my last chapter. great. 🤦‍♂️😂😅😔😓