My Diary WARNING contains angry and sad themes

Crap

Do you ever just want to feel like crap....well that's how i'm feeling right now. I was hanging out with my friends and the guy that I liked kissed me and I know i'm supposed to be happy and I totally was but he has a girlfriend and my best friend likes him...he said he does not know who he likes and he likes me but the sad thing is all my friends ship him and my best friend and all of them told me that they can't see me with him and that they don't want me getting in the way. I don't know what to do anymore I hurt...I hurt so much and I don't really cry over a guy it feels like my stomach is empty and for once I just want to be selfish but I cant. I just cant no matter how much I like him the kiss ah it was so mmagical I had so many butterflies in my stomach and it felt like fireworks. It's fine I have to be hurt for her my best friend who I love...no matter how much it hurts even if im heartbroken