My Diary WARNING contains angry and sad themes

Confused

This is inspired by Heather-Conan Gray

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I'm not even half as pretty....but you like her better I wish I were HER.

"I'm mad. WHY?Because life is nothing like movies not everyone gets a happy ending" she told her other version of herself. The girl with big brown eyes stared at herself "what's wrong with just wanting to have a simple life one that everyone's happy and people are not scared of abandonment" the big brown-eyed girl is always questioning but no one can ever give her an answer except herself... "I can't use him as he used me he is my best friend so what do I do" the big brown-eyed girl has tears in her eyes "everything is just so complicated" her other version was silent. "ANSWER ME!" she started sobbing "I can't" the version whispered the big brown-eyed girl looked down "You know sometimes you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself. You can't just go around expecting everyone wanting to hear your problems because they have their own". The big brown-eyed girl stared in disbelief "How can you say that? I am you the other version of yourself". There was a pause "stop bothering others with your emotion just because you got hurt does not mean you can bother others you just like him." the brown-eyed girl stared at her reflection while tears were pouring. "I'm stuck...I don't know what to do in life," the brown-eyed girl said to her reflection. "But you are right sometimes you don't want to feel, you want to feel numb" her reflection nodded back at her. Then her reflection started fading away back to where she belonged together with the brown-eyed girl she just had to accept it. "You're not depressed you're just stuck and growing up". she told herself this time she did believe it and all the memories started flicking in her head like a movie playing over and over again. She smiled to herself it is time.....time to forgive but the girl will never forget and the saying is true "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Now she has a goal, a goal to help others as much as she can even if she gets hurt on the process even if it breaks her, even more, she will still be there but not her old self. A new chapter begins.

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STICK AND STONES MAY BREAK MY BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME______

Im Trying to be strong, Im Trying to be good, Im Trying to not pick the wrong people