My Diary WARNING contains angry and sad themes

Breathe

I need a break from you. It will hurt you I just cant deal with you anymore. I know your lying you don't say I love you unless your dating someone. I told you it won't end well you even made a promise to me. You never listen to me and it's always about you whenever we hang out I feel exhausted. I cant breathe it's like i'm suffocating and we won't talk about that night you act normal. You hurt my friend in the process she feels like she's loosing you. I usually feel like our friendship has been one sided but now it just feels like you never listen and I can't take that anymore what's the point of asking for advice if you never take it. I'm tired of always being right and you end up crying on my shoulder. You don't even love him if you did why did you say I need to find you another guy so you won't date this one. Trust me your better off going on dates and not having a boyfriend. Do you know how many guys have hurt you?? Do you even care at this point?? No you don't, you always feel like a guy defines who you are well that's wrong. You use guys because your lost and im trying to help you and your so depressed lately and I dont care I am always there for you but not when you drag me with you. I've been so happy lately but with you, you always bring down my mood. I don't know what's wrong and you won't tell me and I told you to talk to someone but yet you won't. You are starting to ditch me and replace me with him. He is not going to be there for you all the time I AM BUT YET HERE WE ARE. My feelings don't matter to you it's always about you. It's always what your feeling what your problems are. Ugh you make me so mad sometimes. FRIENDS ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL THIS WAY! I just cant do this anymore.