He's cold, insensitive and rude... But why can't I stay away?
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My love life was the last of my problems. Last year, bullies, penny less... Senior year didn't present itself exactly as a dream. And everything gets even worst when...
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Memories of our past stuck in my brain ever since last Sunday's encounter with Brett.
He's ade me so happy in the past, in our childhood... but for the past three years?
It had been an utter nightmare.
I was heartbroken. It took me a lot to get over it and mostly thanks to Macy. Ever since Jace spread that rumor Brett started acting weird, but weird turned into mean, and mean into aggressive. And now...
Now it was all over the place.
Friends? That's what I got the last time I was friends with the culprit... almost three years of constant torment. So what if he hadn't directly done anything after that soccer course? That didn't magically erase the past. Nor what happen recently... Me being vanished from the Cafeteria, the pills... and Noel's attempt last Friday. What told me he wasn't a part of it all as well? That he planned it all along with them? After all, Noel and Jade were two of his closest friends and partners in crime. I wasn't sure which of them had hurt me the most indeed...
Well, yes. Brett had.
Nothing could compare to the deep betrayal he put me through... even worst if you added the broken heart.
Friends? Be back to what we were? He missed me?
I wasn't that sure about all that. We weren't just friends that had drifted away over the years and he wanted to retake the relationship. There had been so much pain in our pass. One thing lead to another, a little misunderstanding lead to an argument, and to another, and another, and people joined, and Jade got involved, and Noel felt validated...
No. We weren't just friends that lost contact.
Up until he left for the football course last trimester he'd been a constant in my life, a constant that caused me anxiety and remorse.
Go back to being close?
Was he even honest?
I couldn't make up my mind about it all considering everything and that alone was nerve-wreaking itself.
I didn't trust him anymore. He himself had blowed up his chances and it would be stupid of me to expect anything different after so many suffering so far.
So, no. Being friends again was definitely off the table, no matter how much my aching heart yearned for us to be that close again. It simply wouldn't happen again.
It all really got out of hand, this wasn't just about some messing anymore. Not after the party. This morning I'd crossed paths with Noel and despites throwing my books -a usual- he sent me this knowing smirk and got me shivering. He ain't even utter a word and already got me on the edge. I got this cramping feeling in my chest most of the time in school, half expecting some of them popping out of the blue and doing something. It was turning me into a paranoid and my own sanity was at risk. I was done taking it all wordlessly.
