Dear Diary | Billie Eilish

Forever

Dear Diary,

Sorry I haven't written in this for awhile so let me catch you up. It's been 2 months since Billie and I became official. She's amazing. Words can't even explain how perfect she is. She's really the only thing keeping me...alive right now.

My mom walked in on Billie and I kissing last month and let's just say she didn't take that too well. I don't exactly have a place to do sleep right now, but Billie doesn't know that. People at school also, somehow, found out that I was dating a girl and the bullying got worse. I got to go diary. See you later.

I stopped writing in my diary when tears filled my eyes to the point of me not being able to see anything but a blur. I put my diary away and the final bell rang. As I walked down the hall, with my hood up, towards the exit I heard a few people scoff at me, some laughed at me, and I heard a few people say "Freak."

Tears just streamed down my face at this point. I slammed the doors open and sniffled as I walked down the side walk, not exactly having a waypoint. I flinched at the sound of a car's horn and turned to see who honked. It was Billie. I hate having her see me like this.

She rolled down the window and smiled before she asked "Want a ride?" I tried to calm down from crying, but there was no use. I got in her car and she leaned into kiss me, but paused because she noticed that I was crying. "Hey, what's wrong," she asked as she rubbed a tear off my cheek with her thumb.

I shrugged my shoulders and I broke down. I fell over the center console of her car and felt her arms wrap around my body. "Hey, it's ok," she reassured me. I felt so safe in her arms. Like the worries in the world just vanished. "Can we just go to your house," I questioned. "Of course," she told me.

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We leaned back on her bed. Billie was only wearing a T-shirt and a thong. She played with my hair and I rested my head on her chest. "You're the only one I have, Billie," I said as I calmed down from crying. I felt her hug me tighter as she said "Then I'll be the one you have, forever." I leaned up off of her chest and gave her a heartfelt kiss.

Our kiss became filled with tongue and I was soon straddling her hips. I worked my way from her lips to her neck, where I left a hickey. She let out a heavy breath and she pulled her shirt off. I did the same.

Billie unhooked my bra and threw it on the floor before she put her hand around my tits. I pulled down her thong and moved myself to me face to face with her pussy. I swiped my tongue through her folds as she let out a soft moan.

Billie grabbed onto my hair and moaned as I moved my tongue in and out of her at a fast pace. I suddenly put 2 fingers inside of her and she let out a loud moan. I felt her walls closing in on my fingers and she let go of my hair.

I stopped my movements after her head jolted forward and she let out a few loud moans. I moved back up towards her and gave her a passionate kiss.

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Dear Diary,

Billie and I had sex. Yeah. It was awkward to say the least, but it was good. It was my first time. With a girl too. I just tried to remember all of the things I've seen in porn from the last few years and I guess it worked. I'm on a park bench right now. I'll probably just sleep here tonight. Goodnight, Diary.