deranged

eighteen

both their naked bodies were covered in sweat and jeongin was on top of the elder, chests rising up as they pant in sync.

"i missed this." hyunjin whispered, running a finger on the boy's soft skin.

"but we did this last night, don't be silly." he chuckled. "was that not enough?"

"so you're telling me that you enjoyed it?" they had sex before everything went downhill and hyunjin thought the younger hated it because he was a tad rough.

"every second." he mumbled before trailing wet kisses down his neck. even though the blonde may thought he despised it because he was scared, jeongin had actually loved it.

"mhm that's hot." hyunjin went down to bit his lip and he caught it with ease, kissing the younger hungrily even though they were already out of breath. "masochist, that's what you are."

"and you my love are deranged. psychotic, you're sick." jeongin pulled away, spitting the words that best described him as well. "so am i." he moaned.

the younger was finally finding peace in acknowledging the fact that he wasn't sane at all. the more time he spent with hyunjin, the more he realized that he wasn't alone.

the boy underneath him was just as disturbed and unhinged. they understood each other better than anyone does, it seemed like they don't need anything no more.

"i could've easily murdered you without hesitation back then.." hyunjin suck in a deep breath. "but your eyes..the moment they stared at mine? they instantly made me feel dizzy and weak."

their eyes never left each other as they gaze back intensely.

"oh jinnie." his heart was fluttering with the words. "did you know... back at the campus when you were still my senior? i wish i could've muster the courage to talk to you" he was tracing patterns on the blonde's skin.

"i liked you so much." he whispered.

hyunjin felt his heart furiously skip a beat. this sick obsession, it wasn't one sided all along.

"wish you could've told me, then i wouldn't have to wait for three years." came his whimper, their hands were now intertwined and it felt like they wouldn't let go sooner.

"i knew you what you were doing from the start. i could see you, i could feel you. but of course i couldn't reveal that." jeongin adjusted his body on top. "i loved the chase, the attention you gave me."

it made him feel important.

"so stay here." hyunjin gripped his waist firmly. "everything you want, i could give." he pulled him down so that he could lick his earlobe, dwindling it with his wet tongue.

"who said i'll be leaving?"

good boy.

;

it was 3 am when the elder was awoken by a whiny jeongin. his eyes fluttered open, struggling to adjust to his surroundings as it was too dark.

"jinnie wake up." came another whine.

"mhm jeongin this should be important or i'll make you contort in pain more if it isn't." hyunjin pulled his hair back and he grunted when the boy suddenly straddled him.

"it's urgent." he cried. "i'm starving."

hyunjin looked at him emotionlessly.

"you've got to be fucking me." he glared at him.

"i already did that earlier."

the blonde heaved a sigh, massaging his temples. then he tucked one arm under jeongin and effortlessly carried him from the bed.

"what do you want?" he asked, opening the door and making his way downstairs while carrying the younger.

"why are you sighing like that? i didn't eat dinner because of you!"

"baby shut it, you're gonna wake the people sleeping." he then sat jeongin on the counter and attempted to rummage through the fridge for food.

"oh so now you suddenly care about them. didn't you just kill-"

the younger was silenced immediately when hyunjin put a finger on his lips, eyes staring at him without emotions.

"i said shut it." his low voice made the younger shiver in delight so he just sat there, tight lipped with a smile.

hyunjin then made his way back to the fridge where something exciting caught his eyes. a smirk stretched on his face before he pulled the tray.

"innie, do you want brownies?" his eyes were glinting as he offered the treats to the younger who had no idea at all.

"can i have them all to myself?" jeongin took one piece, innocently looking up at the blonde who was looking a bit too smug.

"mhm all yours." he nodded vigorously and his smile widened when jeongin took a huge bite. he was a bit tense as he watch him intently to see if he's gonna react violently.

"this is good." hyunjin sighed in relief as the younger munch on it hastily. he was enjoying it, not knowing that the brownies were hash. "mmm jinnie are you sure you don't want any?"

"i don't eat anything past midnight, babe." then he spread jeongin's thighs open and squeezed in between them.

"unless it's you." he started kissing on the boy's neck while his hand was caressing on his favorite part, the younger's thick thighs.

jeongin then giggled, wrapping his legs around his waist as he finish the brownies within just a few more bites.

"again?." he whispered while he rolled his head back to give more access. "let's go upstairs then."

"no, let's do it here." hyunjin was now fiddling with innie's pants as he was excited.

"yes you're..you're right." he suddenly shut his eyes as the room was starting to zoom in and out, hands starting to tingle. "it seems like i wouldn't be able to walk anyway."

it's kicking in.

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stream jeongin's skz player :,) the fucking high notes there made goosebumps crawl on my skin im not even fucking kidding.