deranged

twenty seven

obsessed ends at 31 chapters :^ ( i wanna end it at 30 but my ocd wouldn't let me and i kept on saying that i have to match my other book's 51 chaps :")

before the frail boy could collapse onto the floor, hyunjin had already ran towards him, successfully catching him in his arms.

"what are you doing?" jeongin giggled weakly, struggling to open his eyes.

"HELP!" he was shaking as he continued to call for someone, the younger's blood staining his skin. "for fucks sake jeongin. why?" his voice was soft and barely hearable.

his eyes were tearing up while his hands caress his blue strands back. the older was rocking their bodies back and forth and he immediately crashed jeongin into a tight hug.

hyunjin can't bring him to the hospital, it was simply such a big risk to take.

"call doctor choi now!" he instructed one of the guard who came running inside. hyunjin was rubbing the boy's back, whispering words to soothe him and to make sure that he's still breathing.

"baby talk to me." he murmured and the faint squeeze jeongin gave his back reassured him for awhile.

there was silence and his heavy heart beat could be heard.

"j-jinnie." came a weak voice making him perk up a bit. his eyes widened, pulling his body back a bit so that he could get a look of him.

"yes? what is it, is anything hurting?" hyunjin grabbed the boy's shirt and tore it in half so that he could wrap it around his wrists.

"you.." his tiny hands grasped onto the older's face making him look straight into his eyes. "you hurt me."

hyunjin was stunned, not being able to utter a single word. he felt a pit in his stomach as he search for jeongin's eyes.

"jeongin what?" he cleared his throat as his voice wavered and there was an unmistakable crack.

"you do that just everyday." he was now caressing his cheeks with a weak smile stretched on his thin face.

the blonde raised his hand to wipe the tears from jeongin's eyes but then he grip on them suddenly.
"these hands . . " the younger started

"your hands are tainted with murder and yet i feel the safest when i'm held by them." he whispered.

"innie i don't understand."

"that's the point. even i don't get it." he sniffed. "you said we were each other's cure, hyunjin. but instead of fixing me, you scarred me more , just like what i did to you."

this was the truth none of them was prepared for. they knew all along, but they never chose to acknowledge it.

"listen to this silence. it's telling us everything there is to know." his eyes were starting to roll back and hyunjin choked on a sob.

"baby stay with me please. hold on a little longer, jeongin please." thick drops of tears were falling straight onto the younger's face from him.

"jinnie.. if things didn't end up the way we wanted to," he inhaled sharply. "just know that i really do love you. even when you never did."

the blue haired boy was still smiling despite his state. just then his body started to shake violently that he couldn't control himself anymore.

"help! anyone!" hyunjin's eyes was wide as he pull the younger closer to him, shivering hands holding onto him tightly. "no jeongin no.. open you're eyes goddamnit!"

exhausted he collapsed onto the floor with the boy on top of him. he was sobbing badly, breathing was already hard. his hands were tangling with his blue strands.

"i love you too innie. i love you." hyunjin whispered but he couldn't hear him anymore.

will i ever hear your voice again?

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im sosososos sorry for being ia !!! how are yall??