deranged

seventeen

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"how long has he been harming himself?"

hyunjin and the doctor was talking down at the living room after jeongin got treated and was finally stable.

"he's been doing it for awhile now. he couldn't control it." he looked down at his feet. the younger was resting in their room and he was still not awake.

"well i'm gonna need you to keep an eye on him. monitor jeongin so that he wouldn't be able to hurt himself." then the man paused. "take care of him."

hyunjin felt like shit because he knows exactly that he wasn't taking care of the boy he said he loves. he was neglecting him, hurting him when he knows he shouldn't.

but tonight this torture ends.

it wasn't just jeongin who was struggling because the elder was too. he couldn't go on another day without showing the boy how much he truly mattered.

he doesn't care about yuri anymore, and most importantly he swore to gain control over himself once again. it's not easy, but for innie he has to at least try.

"i'll be leaving then. make sure to clean the wounds before changing the bandages, alright? do it at the scheduled time as well to avoid infection." the doctor stood up and shook hands with hyunjin who was still deep in thoughts.

"thank you." the blonde finally said. they exchange bows before he was left alone in the living room.

"he almost died because of you." he was softy talking to himself, knees bobbing up and down. "get your shit together hwang."

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the newly installed door creaked open gently when hyunjin went inside to check on the younger. he had moved from his sleep and he looked so peaceful.

"jeongin?" he came closer and sat beside the boy who murmured incoherently. "wake up, you need to eat." his hand landed on his inner thighs and he was massaging it.

"mmhm."

"jeongi-"

"jinnie?"

the younger's eyes flutter open finally and when he saw hyunjin he immediately threw himself on his lap, wrapping both thin arms around his neck.

he was choking back sobs and his eyes widened as realization dawned to him. he suddenly got off of the elder because he was thinking that maybe he would be mad again.

but hyunjin snake a hand to his waist and pulled him back with a small smile causing jeongin to look at him with a shock expression.

"come here baby." he carried the younger to his lap and jeongin couldn't stop himself as he broke down finally. his loud sobs were excruciating to hear and it made hyunjin tear up as well.

"j-jinnie i'm s-sorry-" he was hiccuping badly, hands clinging tightly on the elder's back as if he was afraid to let go.

"shh innie stop it. you didn't do anything wrong, this is all because of me." hyunjin was placing kisses on his hair down to his neck, rubbing his back to soothe the boy.

"i-i thought you didn't w-want me anymore." jeongin sniffled as he snuggled deep into the elder's neck.

"that will never happen, you know that." he took innie's face in his hand, eyes staring right into each other's soul. "you're such a soft, messy boy and only i can take care of you because nobody else knows how to." at this the younger giggled.

"baby i'm sorry. i've been awful and i still am but i swear i'm trying my best for you." hyunjin took his hand and placed soft kisses on them, trailing towards his bandaged wrists.

a tear drop fell on the rough cloth and this time jeongin caressed his face, making him look at him.

"jinnie don't cry.. i'm fine now see?" he pulled the elder towards his chest as he rub his back. "i'm even better now that you're here with me again." the blonde was softly sobbing into him.

"let me make it up to you, yeah?" hyunjin wiped his tears as he gazed at him intently.

"you don't have to..having you back is more than enough." then the younger pulled him onto the bed with him, tossing the sheets over their connected bodies.

"i will never let you out of my sight again." he whispered as he pull the petite body closer to his, warmth immediately engulfing him.

"jinnie i-" jeongin stopped himself abruptly before the word could even slip out of his mouth. he was scared that maybe hyunjin would think he was going way too fast.

"what is it angel?" he hummed, scooting closer to his face so that their noses and foreheads were touching.

"i uh i just wanted to say thank you."
i love you hyunjin. i love you

"mhm i'd do anything for you." he mumbled as he shut his eyes, puckering his lips to kiss jeongin's cheeks and nose.

then the younger soon shut his eyes as well and this is when he felt hyunjin's tongue part his mouth before inserting it inside his own.

he moaned and it came out in a desperate tone.

their tongues explored each other, skin littered with goosebumps as the taste they'd been craving was now in their mouth.

their pants were getting louder, the kiss getting even deeper. hyunjin hauled the boy to his lap while his arms held onto his waist firmly, occasionally sliding down to grab his ass.

with his slender fingers he was kneading the soft skin, spreading it open while the boy moaned and grind on him.

"jinnie..we need to stop we can't do anything serious yet, my cuts still needs to heal." he giggled as they pulled away but the elder wasn't listening as he suck desperately on his neck going to his chest.

"i'll be gentle this time, i swear." jeongin was tugging on his hair roughly as he suckled on the soft spot he didn't even had trouble finding.

"no. let's just rest and sleep, we both need it." at his the elder gave up. he sighed and looked at him with a pout.

"but i'm already hard innie." he was caressing jeongin's arms that left a trail of goosebumps but still he shook his head."please?"

"lay down." the younger said after a while of persuading. hyunjin immediately sat back on the bed and he watch as the boy kneeled in between his thighs.

jeongin then slid the zipper of his pants down and brushed his bangs back.